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I have a lot to say I just don’t always know how to say it
When pertaining to music, I don’t often speak in theory, or analogy, I speak in emotion,….where I was when I heard a certain song, how it made me feel, what I was wearing, who I was with ,…….what actions it inspired later That’s a very selfish way to talk I’m selfish in my music,…..it’s just for me, until I meet someone I think will benefit from it, as I might have,….and then I share it,…..i share it with my emotions in hopes it will evoke the same in others,……because it made me so excited, because it made me feel something ,….. Being southern, there’s a few things that are sure to make me happy,…..things that are made of bacon, or butter, or deep fried So bare with me, with my misspellings, with my “,…..”,……..because these things are my bacon wrapped deep fried butter,…. |
this morning i had a present from an exboyfriend for my upcomming birthday
he sent me the download for the new lucero album,....its no secret that they are my favorite band i've listened to it all day,.....and though i've held tenneesee in such high regaurds, i believe this may be my new favorite album i've listened to it, and felt it, and fallen in love with it,...i've cried to it, and sang with it, and at one point rode around on old solitary tree lined dirt roads, as high as i could function, and just,......listened so much of my life has been soundtracked to lucero, most of my relationships have had one 'album' that made sence to me during its course, and this newest album is very bitter sweet at the moment ben nichols, pens in one the way he can, everything i want to say right now,....everything i want to say to brandon (the sailor who sent it to me in the first place), everything i want to say about the new developing relationships in my life, everything i want to say to my mother, of all people,...... on a musical note,...they've added horns, which at first scared me,....but the more i listen to it, the more it just works,....the more i'm happy to hear them,... ben's voice seems to be clearer on this album, which sometimes tempers his brooding mood,....there's also alot of really fun melodies that lightens it more than the typical lucero sound,....even if the lyrical content remains as whiskey soaked as ever |
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This is how everyone should be when talking about their music and how it moves them so don't apologise even if the lack of capitals is irksome ;) |
today was the perfect day for the allman brother's melissa,.....its started to cool down a bit, and though the sun shone brightly, there was a crispness to the air i love this time of year and the way the allman brothers easily play into it i tend to ride dirt roads alot,....they are my very favorite thing, a good dirt road with big oak trees, cows who allow you to visit them along the way and the feeling of cool fall air filling my lungs through rolled down windows melissa is a daily, sometimes twice daily, event for during my fall excursions,...there's just something about that rolling guitar lick and the promise of a love that holds a man near |
I know what you mean about something just feeling so much better during a certain time of the year. For the past six years now I always get this urge to read H.P. Lovecraft during the fall/ early winter months. It's hard to explain but just something about the weather seems to add an extra sense to his writing. I don't really think I have any musical preferences based on seasons though... or maybe I do but I just haven't taken the time to explore it. Regardless "Melissa" is one of the Allman Brother's best songs.
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i've the most horrible week,...a couplea friends are breakin up, and i'm having to hold them together, separately,....i had a horrible cakeless birthday,....i've been stuck typein sex offender reports the past two weeks,....there's someone i want to be with so bad, and just cant get too,....just, a buncha stuff
but this is makein me feel better right now lucero - what are you willing to loose ray lamontage - winter birds blue october - 18th floor balcony neil young - castles burning spoon - i summon you laura marling - failure jason boland and the stragglers - mary counting crows - raining in baltimore john mayer - stop this train |
here i sit listening to the new guy clark album,....first run through
i told bulldog he was like 80, i think its really closer to 70,...but i'm still amazed at the music this man puts out,... this is the first time i've heard the new stuff in recorded form, i saw him about six or seven months ago at poor david's pub in dallas,..... i shouldnt be as stunned as i am, but its just,.....some of his best work,...it really is,....and thats sayin alot of a song writter like guy clark,.... so far the stand out are the guitar and heimingway's whiskey, all she wants is you..... i'll be more than happy to pass the download to anyone who wants it |
My inner Grammar Nazi is simply itching to bash the hell out of your posts here, but I can get the gist out of what you're saying mostly. :wave:
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i used to scoff at john mayer,....my only refrecence was that wonderland body song
but then i saw him at the crossroads guitar fest back in 2004,.... i was workin at a little dinner in town, and my friend david came in and told me his dad bailed on goin and he couldnt think of anyone who would want to put up with the day but me,.....so i covered my shift right then, threw on some blue jeans i found in the floor of my truck bought a cheap tank top at a truck stop on the way and took off to dallas it stormed on us the whole way, which is one reason i didnt really worry about clothing,.....i knew no matter what i would just get wet i'd been to festivals before,....but normally it just involved dancein around in a circle, or layin on a blanket,.....it was about the music, but also about the people around me,.....cross roads was different for me i grew up on classic rock,...and to stand there and see joe walsh, james taylor, clapton, jeff ****in beck, jj cale, buddy guy, honeyboy edwards, santana,......it was epic to me,.... but as i stood there, i remember this guy in two polo shirts with poped collars comes out,....and just starts groovein,....just starts playin,....and he's makein these crazy faces,.....maybe it was that night,....maybe it was the high i felt just being there,....but i got john mayer right then,.... he's an amazing guitarist,....and he just,....he feels it,...its not theory, its not technical,....i really believe for him, its divine,....and i felt that,... so you say john mayer's commin to town? sign my ass up |
i hate to say it, but yes i am one of those who's life was changed by pat green,...
up until high school my texas music love affair was fueled by those my mother introduced me too,.....those she grew up listenin too jerry jeff guy clark towens van zant aside from robert earl keen and lyle lovett, the scene was dead and then came pat green beer drinkin, pick up trucks, being texan,.....ok ok i know what you are thinkin, but i eat that up sometimes i saw pat not too long ago,....the first time i ever saw him was at gruene hall, and this time was at gruene hall,....it was like goin back to where it all started over for me,....that very moment i immersed myself in this scene i hold so dear and while i've not purchased a pat album since wave on wave (and he hopped a bus to nashvegas) i was excited to revisit those old songs that still remain so comfortable brandon and i were passing gruene hall as we walked to dinner, next door at the grist mill, and once you got close enough you could here carry on coming out of the building,.... i stopped dead in my tracks,....."oh my god brandon we are seeing pat green at gruene hall" and i repeated this several times and i even tried to look through the cracks of the building to see him,...this was the show for the 75 buck tickets that were sold out before we got to them,..... i thought this was my usual excitement for a show... like when i see lucero, or guy clark, or jerry jeff after dinner we got in line at 807pm they let us in at 9pm im excited i'm freakin out,....i'm so excited to see pat, to have that moment back we grab some drinks and grab a spot center stage,.....at the old table i always sit at,....the one with my name carved in it at least half a dozen times,.....the one that marks milestones in my life, relationships come and gone, road trips taken with friends,.....what i wouldnt give to own that table someday 40 minutes pass pat starts up take me out to the dancehall in a matter of maybe 60 seconds the last decade came full circle i remember being a teenager wanting to see pat green sooo bad it hurt but I wasn't old enough or no one wanted to go with me or I didn't know how to drive any where but a dirt road 10 years of good times bad times hard times responsible times reckless times 10 years of friends enemies love fear hope needs wants 10 years of broken dreams dreams come true i would sit in my pick up and dream of seeing what I was living this night,....it was everything i dreamed and more and we weren't even half way through the first song yet ive gone from a carefree teenager to working through a rough transition into adult hood i feel brandon scratch at the small of my back and then squeeze on my hand i calm down and was just like wow i am really happy right now... pat didn't even get through,... "it's going to be late, hell we might not make it back at all" and i was full stream crying,....shinner bock in hand i don't know what happened |
I'd be lying if I said the musical experience had made me feel that way for a long, long time, but I do definitely know the feeling, and there are a few artists who take me way back in that sense - Elvis Costello, the Doors, New Order, David Bowie, Steel Pulse, Iggy Pop and so on. It gives music even more staying power when it has that strange kind of emotional trigger like that.
I'll admit I haven't read this journal for a few weeks now, but just thought I'd drop by and say keep this up - there are some great reads in here. |
I always get really interested with this one, mostly because you've taken a completely different approach to your Journal than any of the other ones I've read. I like this, and I don't mind your grammer at all! :p:
I mostly like how you relate to the music through a personal experience, and which emoticons you feel. I like this Journal more than I thought I would, even though I've never commented in it, or told you so :). |
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thank you kayleigh,... i know that at times i may be a bit venomous twards you, and i think its just that we just arent on the same wave length,...so, i'm sorry,....thank you for your kind words, and i hope to get so drunk with you someday it doesnt matter we misunderstand each other for a time in my life i was so emursed in the texas scene that i couldnt see my way out of it,....it was my friends, it was my family, it was my day to day business i would always go on listenin spree tangents in other genres but there was always some connection to what i had emursed myself it,....it was an influence, a recommendation, its what was playin in the van in my late teens and early 20s i was so wrapped up in that penny lane persona, prolly because i wish i could harness talent in a way that i saw was influencing my life so much,....i found alot of solace in it its been so long that i was at a small show and did not know the band that lucero saturday night threw me back into that whole 'wonderment of it all' even with the vomit, and outragous bar tab i'm really glad that i was thrown back into it i stood there in the crowd jumpin around witha buncha drunken sweaty flannel clad boys and just sang my ass off,...rather off key if i remember correctly i shared it with my lil ginger fellow friend jake,....jake whose not a lucero fan,...jake who makes me listen to the stroke and sparklehorse,....jake who worships at the alter of morrsey,..jake in his skinny jeans and cord jacket with little leather patches on the elbows,....jake in his union jack high top tennis shoes,...jake who lit all of my smokes, and shoved water down my throat and i cant imagine sharein the show with anyone but him he has influenced my listening so much in the past six months, reminded me that there was a scene so much bigger than the lil one i've embraced my whole life,....he has shared so much of himself with me through his music, both that he is listening to and createing he would always roll his eyes when i made him listen to MY ipod, and it was exciteing to share something so dear to me with him, something that has ment so much to me,....to show him that it is so much more than simple riffs, and no bridges,....more than just a glass gargling distortion of vocal cords i think this show might be what bridges our tastes together,....more than a mix tape ever could and i look forward to him doin the same with me jake, if youre reading this, i promise when julian casablancas makes it anywhere near texas, or a neighboring state for that matter,....we will be at that show, even if we eat ramen for a month to fund it,......and if you had a purse, i would hold it the whole time for you, just like you did for me |
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I hadn't heard Lucero's "What are you willing to lose" or Laura Marling's "Failure," so I listened to them (as YouTube videos) and liked both their message and the sound of them. I enjoyed Laura Marling's voice (oh, and her lovely accent! Sigh). I feel the Lucero video of "What are you willing to lose" did a very good job of illustrating the meaning of the lyrics by having the hero be someone dressed up like a fairy, riding his bike around, with his eventual secret weapon being the beer he's always offering people. Poor guy. Even the woman he saves runs off with his little mesh bag while he closes his eyes, thinking she is going to kiss him! |
I can kick a Laura Marling album your way if you want it, V.
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i've been sittin on this for a week
over the holiday i spent alot of time with my old high school friends,....granted most of the time was spent on a dirt road,...or sittin in someone's barn,....but it was quality time none the less shallow this may seem, but through our ipods i realized my home town friends havent progressed they still do the exact same thing we did in high school, all while listenin to the exact same thing we did in high school, my music is still just as foreign to them as it was in high school, and the older i get the more problems i have relating to those in my past i asked myself, as i sat there listenin to 2pac,...yes i swear it was the 2pac,.....what is wrong with these people i couldnt sing along to any of them anymore,....and barely remembered all of 'my' part to getto cowboy (dont judge i was a 14 year old drunk),.... they didnt know anything i had, nor were they willin to explore it,.....we just all had to go back to the same ol same ol because i mean,...things that are different are scary,...everyone knows that,.... and that made me think about being an awkward kid,....i was very awkward until high school,...i listened to weird music,...i wore alot of flannel,....i read these things called books,....and was just all around weird,....my friends still like to remind me that i'm the weird one, even though i slowly let their back woods pop culture seep into my life,... and lookin back, i'm glad that i learned enough of their bull**** that i had a really great time,....because i did,....outside of the class room i had a wonderful time in high school,....but i'm kinda sad too, i'm sad that i soaked up so much of them, and they soaked up nothing of me,..... sadly, alot of my self identity is tied to those years,....and how i've progressed after them, but they are the base,.....and as i sat there i realized all of that,...this,....is ridiculous,...that i couldnt wait to get out of the county,.....and from now on i hope to run into my friends from time to time in town,....but i wont be callin anyone up to hang out when i got back home,.....i'm gonna go on about my business, and pray that drinkin the water there doesnt get me knocked up or married |
falling out of music love
this week i have fallen out of music love,...no really i have the sound of it, no matter what it is just makes me cry i dont know why i dont know what to do about it but lets hope it goes away soon |
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But I remember waiting out side of a Library one winter, waiting to pick someone up flipping around the radio and landing on Gravity, not knowing it was Gravity and thinking "I don't know what the hell this is, but its kinda badass." It was syrupy, it was thick, and funky. Ever since then I've moved past his early douchey appearance. |
^ I was totally the same way. At first I thought he was cool, then I started really getting into music and got really pretentious for a while and thought he was lame, then gave him some more listens and liked it. He really is actually a good guitarist.
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this morning i start anew
completely wiped out the ipod completely dump the itunes no more lucero no more texas country completely start over old favorites may creep in later on, but i dont want any of my past in my present or future right now new influences new directions more folky more acoustic more love love love love love love love well,....except the allman brothers i always keep the allman brothers |
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If you want the URL for my Gothic Country mediafire folder just holler back girl.
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I'd die a little on the inside if I lost my entire music library. I'm not sure if you're brave or crazy, but good luck! It's probably for the best though if you're losing interest in your songs.
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thanks guys,....for the luck
and thanks pete, for the link offer,...BUT i think the best thing for me right now is to steer clear of country in almost any form every few years or so, i do this i wipe everything out and start clean,.... often times i find too many things tied to music,...memories, thoughts, feelings,.....and in order for me to move forward i have to physically start over |
my new step mother is from lousiana,.....our christmas celebration was laced with holiday zydeco music, we had a cajun fried turkey, dirty rice stuffing, crawfish, and these wonderful green beans with brown sugar and soy sauce in them,.....(not that the green beans are cajun in the slightest,...but they were really really good)
in one of my gift bags there was also a copy of one of my favorite movies 'a love song for bobby long',...... i feel like my heart is in nola and though i know its not exactly the way my mind remembers it,....i know my romantic idea of old buildings laced with iron work, beautifully sunken cemeteries, huge oak trees draped with spanish moss, creole and cajun cooking,....boudian and rolling rock,.....the air heavy with smoke and horns or saturated with red beans and rice and gravelly voiced blues,....... i know this isnt the every day nola but i still think she's my girl |
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strange, ever since i wiped out my ipod, i've just kinda rejected it,....i have a few hundred songs uploaded,....but i just, havent felt musical,....untill the green came
it is spring time here in texas, the blue bonnets are out, the temperature is now ranging into the 80s, all the animals are having babies,.....and its time to enjoy the world around me again the next few months are really shapeing up for me musically,.....neil young yes i said it,...neil ****ing young i cant even begin to explain what this show means to me,....if there's a neil young fan, they're sittin in front of my lap top i cant remember my life without him in it,.....as a child my daddy would sing heart of gold to me (neil is his favorite songwritter),....harvest was one of the first albums i ever owned,.....in high school i developed a great love for his work with crazy horse, and crosby stills and nash,.....but it wasnt until i was older than i understood just what neil means to me neil young is the bridge between me and my daddy,....one of the only real bridges we have,.... old man, take a look at my life,.....i'm ALOT like you as soon as i heard he would be in dallas i called dad me: "dad" dad: "hey" me: "so neil young is gonna be in town,.....if i forgo christmas and my birthday this year, do you think you could get us tickets" dad: "well,...uh,.....dont you want to go to georiga to see mom with us this year,...we will be there when he's here" me:"uh,...DAD! NEIL YOUNG WILL BE IN DALLAS" dad: "ha ha ha,....ok ok ok i see your point, pick out two tickets and i'll have them mailed to you" me: (screaming and crying) "thanks dad" so thats how i came upon two,...TWO,...tickets i'll be taking my best friend krista, who just moved from tulsa to san fran and will be flyin in for the show because i cant imagine anyone else in my life besides dad that i would be emotionally ready to share the show with neil young,....i'm SO EXCITED a mere month after that, i'll be sittin on the lawn watchin jack johnson with my step mother, dad, and new brother,......while i enjoy jack johnson, i never would have thought to go see him,...but he's my step mother's favorite and i look forward to seeing how it effects her,..... i anticipate love,.....lots and lots of love, beaming from everyone and i'm just gonna soak it up another month after that,...KINGS OF LEON,.....say what you will, but i really really really love kings of leon,....thats my birthday present from my mother, and eventhough she wears earplugs through shows, i'm excited to see them with her then its on to south by southwest,.....pearl jam, levon helm, and so many others,.... its spring time its SPRING TIME ITS SPRING TIME!!! let the music in |
Ill write more later when im not on my phone
Today i found out lucero is commin to town, where i live, randomly in like 2 weeks, for free Im so happy i laughed and cried for an hour and a half i was so happy So so very happy |
i'm going to attempt to put into words what i saw alittle over a week ago
the events that led up to my night with neil young dont matter, what matters begins as soon as i stepped out of my car, and into the parking garage across the street from the myerson symphony center everyone seemed to be just a buzz,....from suits to sun dresses, jeans and 30 year old concert tee shirt, 8 year old kids standing between their parents, aging hippies, neo hippies, not a cowboy hat in sight, not even a cowboy boot,.....everyone seemed to be just as excited as i was to soak up the energy i was worried that i had jacked myself up to much,....that i had put too much on neil,....that coming off such an amazing lucero experience, i may not be able to hold up the level of excitement that i wanted to,.....i wanted tears, i wanted a spiritual experience, i wanted to be in that groove that allowed me to be the second person in a room that was full,.....i needed it to be like that and it was set list: My My, Hey Hey (Out Of The Blue) Tell Me Why Helpless You Never Call Peaceful Valley Love and War Down by the River Hitchhiker Ohio Sign Of Love Leia After The Gold Rush I Believe In You Rumblin' Cortez The Killer Cinnamon Girl Encore Old Man Walk With Me i hate to admit, while i was receptive to whatever he gave us,.....the one song i had to hear,...had to like my life depended on it,....old man i bawled like a baby, i sang along,.....i held the hand of the guy who sat next to me because i could feel him tear up too,..... honestly the best musical experience of my life it amazes me he still rocks so hard,....he was in a good mood, jovial, talking to us, laughing with us, receiving everything we sent his way i wish i could put it into better words, i wish i could say more i feel like i have so much to say, but just,....cant,... i'm still on neil young high |
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after a quick over night trip, a stop at the cathedral of junk and some cornmeal and banana pancakes from the magnolia (for you locals, the south congress location is home to my second favorite tree,...its in the back, and a giant oak,.....if you get a chance stop by and make sure you touch it) i realize just how much dallas music stores suck sure you have bills tapes and records, which was much better at the old location,...but hey sometimes they hand out free beer and who wouldnt love that we also have good records over on lower greenville and the monday night movies are great,...but neither one or no End of an Ear if youre ever in austin skip waterloo and make your way there the staff was extremely cool, the used section is expansive, and the vinyl is beautiful and smartly organized my recent purchases included: wu tang the swarm on vinyl for like four bucks the octopus project - identification parade sufjan stevens - age of adz dr dog - takers or leavers mudhoney - piece of cake |
last night i saw the legendary pink dots, at the house of blues in dallas
show high lights: eddies orange linen fisherman pants and black caftan the shoes i painted for(black toms with a big pink dot on the top of the left toe, and a much much smaller one on the back of the right heel,....now signed in silver sharpie) the news of serious plans for a fall tear garden tour white coats and haloes almost tribal beats i never picked up on before sitting on the floor the weather sounds at the beginning of soft toy a theremin compared to how i view their catalog as a whole,...i felt like the over all tone of the show was extremely positive, which was perfect for my first show as i was afraid it would be more dark than what i wanted to deal with yesterday over all experience: amazing,...educational,..... but hopefully it was all just foreplay to an upcomming tear garden tour |
This is such a refreshingly different journal. Keep writing it!
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thanks conan
over the past few weeks i have really emursed myself to a lot of electronic based music,....a lot of dub step,....and wutang but driving home from work yesterday,....through the sounds of a monday in down town dallas,.... past the ladies going in and out of neiman marcus' flag ship store,.....past the homeless guys, and the young professionals past the sandwich shops, and starbucks' (one of them my own),.....past the green building and the myerson,.... i shuffled my ipod and these two songs played back to back,.......it made my day, it made me feel everything i wanted to,....and provided the perfect soundtrack as i got the hell outa the city YouTube - Sufjan Stevens - Vesuvius YouTube - Mumford and Sons - "The Cave" 2/26 Ferguson (TheAudioPerv.com) |
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YouTube - winston rodney (burning spear) - jah no dead acapella
sometimes i tell myself i can chant down Babylon if i really wanted to "Meet me at the bank of the beautiful river When your journey has end I & i will discuss about this matter" "Jah no dead" |
sometimes i forget who i am,....i really do
as someone who has such a strong sense of self i find my evolution to be overwhelming at times, and i just need to reconnect to the girl i once was to remember the woman i have become texas country, alt country, red dirt,...whatever you want to call it connects me to that older, or maybe younger (depending on how you look at it) self YouTube - Jerry Jeff Walker - Gettin' By Live 1991 YouTube - Stoney LaRue and Kevin Webb - "Blind Man" High Quality YouTube - Townes van Zandt - 04 No Place To Fall (A Private Concert) YouTube - Lyle Lovett: Nobody Knows Me |
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