i like the second one i think it would sound good with an 808 downtempo beat and a few 7th chords, maybe a tad swing style to it
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if you want i can show what i meant for instrumental idea (it will be instrumental no lyrics)
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1. I no longer want what I have worked so hard for, I want everything else. Remember to be steel you’re so weak I don’t want to believe this is mine anymore, I will return to everything I used to be, I’m so full of rage and I remember now there is something I am reaching my hands past you towards it’s so sick but it’s true and I feel it deeper it came so soon but pulling it out of my throat won’t do me any good, my organs will come with it and I feel me coaxing out the evil it feels so ****ing good I’ll make myself a god I’m watching you build your shrines that I’ll topple with my tiny feet is there no one I can trust is there no one I can tell lies to I’ve forgotten that I didn’t want to be here anymore. I’m writing out my lives to strangers, loves and lies to strangers ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I feel alive in something that I’ve written down on someone ears can you hear me speak toward a windowpane I am laughing later than it seems all you have to do is wait for me to blow forward with kisses tumbling out of a mouth that sometimes is wrong but always goes on. Turn off the eyes to turn them on brighter it matches my smile that curves around my face do you think you can match it up tile for tile it might take forever it will surely take a while but I don’t wait to stop running to stop the laugh that trails up my ankles and over my hips it remembers me? Can’t you see? It finds itself in the warm water rising into your skin to swallow it. I feel alive I’ve woken up to tear apart the clay that I always forget that isn’t forged by any other hand it seems no other way but now I remember how to see. Can’t they see you past the spears in your heart? I raise up my shoulders, I’ll speak for myself this time, every other time you’ve taken my voice and it’s louder than you are tall -------------------------------- it seems like you could coax the devil out of me or grab it by its tail if it goes through your hand you’ll not hold it against me will you remember that I’ve bled too, bled through but don’t make me carve you into my side if I need to remember I’ll pave the road myself with my pierced hands clawing at the dirt in a joy that the body feels but the mouth cannot name if maybe you could coax the devil out of me I would not need to stop myself from swallowing this world whole softening me up without the broken nails. It’s just that everyone seems to forget that I was only broken once but you could love me without that need to smother it’s a contagion I don’t get the taste of as close as it comes to you. |
These are written to be read aloud, dude. I would love to perform these.
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good morning musicbanter
new things: something about pianos always makes me cry, all on the nights I can hear them and the chords blend on forever and it looks like they only come in read, and i feel sick the only sick come onto this purity i murdered for i emasculated them all and i'm still tossing it over my head. i guess it comes into place when you're tearing them apart, the early morning red smile, oh it feels like the honest hand in the arms of liars. they call my every demon and this heart made me a god, soon as i tore it out of them. but i don't line myself up with yesterdays fancies --------------------------------------------------- so i’ll liven up my whiskey glass to separate for the pain oh well, who cares it wasn’t worth it anyways all the goodness risen up to the slaughter can i really say i’m not surprised and between the days i can forget right where it hurts good faith was among my bad habits i’ll try to pretend like it never happened and until you come home you never existed I wake up to this nightmare again and again I chase after forgetfulness and I only feel it slip while i know i was too good to be true the loved ones seem to become the exception and not the rule ------------------------------------ here we rest, he says he was always beautiful forever flaunting feathers he looks back at me so skinny and so shrewish I've been writing letters to you since before I was born I spoke to you across the many years I guess it seems and I weigh every word and send it back to you, just waiting Now I'm dying and wishing that I'd never opened up that door never cleaned the cupboards and ate up all the pantry And I ask myself why can't just give them all up Give them up to let go and let God in My fingertips did spell out faith once but it's just never the right kind So just leave and never come back I'll turn up my hands as a sacrifice I can't cross back to the street to where I left my spine I can't mark it and sing sweetly this was mine, once was mine. -------------------------------------- I can’t say that he knows how to count the lies he counts on his own but are you watching me walking away you were so wrong I’ve got all these lies holding up to hide the claws in my chest I’m doing my best I’m doing my best to forget that you believed it was for you nothing I say now will count towards making that one slip untrue wont you believe me on the nights I wake up with your name on my lips im falling apart pulling apart day by skipping day I wake up to forget, wake up to forget what ive come to regret which cripples me from all the way under pulling out the nerves from my skin like petals fall apart he loves me he loves me not did I tell the truth im telling lies to everyone but you I swear I swear the flowering rage prescribes me a pain Its drowning into me I’m pulling it out To remember this is to die I’m on a mission to forget you exist forget my heart is in your hands you only smash smash so careless that it feels itself out of the hole in my chest It’s a myth that finds itself destroying my lungs Choking itself out of me do you believe me now? Do you believe in how… It’s curving my spine into a scream, with its silence it’s heaviness is my everyday sickness that ive never seen its breaking my back the hollow rage it has become my blood and bone it sinks its teeth into me when I’m all alone the longing is dripping into my skull like molten gold can you just tell me, tell me again when can I feel whole? All these things. All these things. You’ll never know. I just wanted to be good I just wanted to be good for you --------------- bye musicbanter xoxo |
It seems to be my legacy,
breaking things that are right in front of me, fixing them up and making them whole, those things they're too big to swallow I apologize, there's just too much of me to tie down to you and contorting myself tends to let me fly away like I did before, catching my hair on the tree branches, forever leaving parts of myself behind. Hansel and Gretel, who know's what goes between your eyes? |
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------ It seems to me that you are my madness, my true madness, without a standing sickness, except with the hands of love, holding up the flesh I tore spart myself, a mistaken rage, my violence is contained, I bury it, I bury you inside me, can you stay there forever, can you sleep in the space between my knees? I can feel myself exploding with hope. Where there was organs there are red, blinding sparks. Tell me, am I bandaged in faith? Good god, I aspired to be less than this. I'm sealing this envelope with my own blood, freely given, not forcibly shed, can you tell? Am I transparent in all the hours I've been collecting, the words I pick up at the side of the road. I nurse sentences back to health, you'll see them with their new lives in reference to you, only you. It was only ever you. The scratches of a diamond on a mirror, I can now see the future, your hand is on my shoulder. How can you trust me not to break your fingers? I'm chewing on fear, this doesn't belong to you, but maybe I do. |
I'm building up this bridge
just to tell you that wasn't your lie no, the things you read into don't always belong to you. all the lonely men, the weapons of choice I carved my name into them, but found them bloodless, I filled in their names with black ink Twenty miles high, the skyline built on a typewriter's clacking keys 26 ways of unlocking into me I offer them all, up to you Don't misplace the threads, please they've sewn me back together so tightly but being in pieces is not unthinkable when those parts rest in your hands. |
It doesn’t feel so good, does it?
When you open your eyes you won’t think of me. I don’t to fight this battle anymore never to take up the sword again but the sword crawls back in my heart to rise when ready you do know its there, you hold it everyday, to keep it from what it longs to lacerate. I try to remember reasoning, I find only rage. If you want it, it’s yours, my hands have grown cold, I can’t turn back now, it feels too much like trust. This garden overgrown reaches out, pleading for understanding. Do you forget what the world is like? No, but I’ve tried so many times. Sometimes too much is not enough. Do you hear me? ---------------------------------- And I know this number makes up for nothing but I can pretend your insides marr my skin, the burn goes farther than anything this wave, this wave overcomes me, but watch me learn to swim in it, if anything to hold against the tide all sworn in, as magnets seem to rust and tho, so is far, then I could not reach out to you, no long armed son of a gun, not me, so I reach beneath, the dirt become, under the sky,I know your bones, even if I don't know mine, I crawled on my belly just to watch you shine. A lot happens in a night where I give you the wrong number we know all about that touch, I don't want this and I never know how it starts. But, If you strap me to this city there is nothing that could save you. --------------------------- wait and ask yourself who it is you're waiting for i remember the nightmares the process of waking up becoming a comatose wife, your dream not mine i feel your heart waiting for mine to fall backward that's the direction for obsession, infatuation this isn't anything like love and yet i feel it still when i can't find the strength to pull open the curtains and let the sun in me i'm holding fast to those dark nights in November anticipating my own bruises, at least they showed you cared You still listen to my favorite songs when you remember them I hear them when I set my feet outside the house You were nothing if not loud enough to wake the sleepy world but you put mine to sleep, and now I'm unsure if its forever The hole you left is grown over with fresh skin skin that I keep tearing open when it gets to feel like this I remember your weeping when the camera told no lies for once in our lives, it matched mine. no no, on and on i feel your hands entwined in my hair daring me to bleed to be free, but i did once |
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Wow, Hermione. You are undeniably talented.
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Don't be embarrassed... I am impressed a 23 yr old has so much depth of life, of course that's not much younger than me anyway. You could just write one sentence and I notice heightened writer's talent.
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Hermione Stark is way better than Hermione Granger...
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everyone is asking me it seems
lately it's always "why do you miss him" did i hand you my own knife because you're carving deep into me i'll tell you now there is no relief from this i would have found it with my own hands cruelly twisting and contorting my soul into seven pieces or maybe six but what's a soul when i lost my heart to you in sincerity i'm laughing but it's just the madness curdling me and mine into fear i'm holding my head up as it won't stop bleeding out in the world there goes my heart speeding away from me, farther and farther it goes into the ground to grow out its roots deeper and deeper i am falling and purging out the monster that holds on to my name and claims it for their own hard earned smiles wander onto my teeth tentatively screaming my set of shark teeth wait their calling to start sharpening but i feel myself on those nimble feet falling away from something that won't leave me i'm asking for its wisdom it's just feeding me wine made of my own blood, these letters written from a typewriter once built from lust, can you tell me, can you tell me, will they ever ever be enough? |
I can relate to this feeling of missing someone disguised as madness. :clap:
You told me recently he got married. Even though he was abusive it can still hurt... |
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but i have to say that this passion isn't in it's infancy a patient fire, drawing itself up to face infinities promised by other tossed and torn torches i'm laughing bleeding from the ears, i see you taking toll on the mossy stones, with bleeding feet mine are calloused and black with despair i feel it in my knees i come to you tomorrow to promise you the magic words the ones that fall from your teeth, just say please leave the cleaver at home, i'll take my hands from behind my back you could leave me amputated and aching, i'm not lying for once in my life, i'd stay faithful holding my tourniquets with my ankles they ask me if it's trying, i say to you it's my life and my pain the pattern of the ache is not quite the same, it's nothing i know these pages were filled with other names but their songs are yours as if i'd known all along that my voice only can see the sun that shines on you i'm laughing and holding the mirror in front of your face never mind the glass, it's plastic but it's reality at least for me it grows, it grows it grows it's my pestilence and it's about to burst it's a shame this fanciful fool, veiled in fidelity blinds you but this pain, this ache, I favour it, I savour it as it shows I'll carry it as my sword against Cerberus and home is where I'll carry you my heart is where I'll carry you, past the black gates that already know my name and my rage is the fire, my faith is the flame made to break an iron will nevermind an iron won't, i don't hear my ears listening to it my heart, can you swim? it matters not, never mind this black river we've come to my shoulders will built to carry us, no matter that they're half broken. So am I. |
do you still tell yourself
when you're drinking that this isn't you, what you had in mind do you still tell yourself you don't mimic my speech who do you think gave you those words that spell out your cleaned out soul? i don't care, you keep yourself blind go ahead and tell yourself i wasn't what you had in mind to myself, i once told those same old boring lies you can't keep my attention don't you dare deny it i trade in something rawer something more flawed and painful than your flimsy house of lies tell yourself it's not a treason tell yourself the name you dream of wasn't always mine. No matter how the letters line up it goes back to me it follows me around the bend it's at my heels I won't bow down to it, but i know exactly how it feels. |
i am not sorry my hands were faster
to grab hold of the blades you showed wolves tear at your throat drawn to my voice a howl louder than your sounds made mewling i am not sorry my heart was full up when you came to what you thought was your home i'm not sorry, i'll keep stabbing my pound of flesh has turned into a tonne I'll squeeze every last drop from your lips you liar, you liar you lied and expected me to lie down for you? you speak a name you thought belonged to you, but that was before before becoming a person i was a monster yes that monster was yours but who pulled the strings? is it enough now, all that i've purged has it been enough to ensure you'll know who i gave myself to how many words will i have to string together while i'm still strong enough to do so will convince you? I'll do it i swear i'll build a bridge out of my own bones and skin tied together with my nerves pulled out because i tell you i don't know how much longer i can stay strong i'm already in pieces but those shards are still yours to keep. |
i wear my heart on my sleeve
while i'm wearing your veins in my teeth don't think of fear for what's beneath the trees it seems to stutter its branches towards you and unto me there's a world that needs her and here i stand ready to give her back to the earth and you cannot stop me my heart is heavy and my soul was culled from the bottom of well and here i'm stumbling over words and feelings and i watched you as you fell i feel the nails they're digging into me and this was not how it was supposed to be but it's how i wanted it and who can tell me if i have lost my way or drawn myself a map in the wrong direction can i borrow the sounds from someone else's foot falls just so i can forestall what happens when feelings inside me take root and bloom i'll weed them out oh i've tried but from here who knows, for once i don't want the fight to be mine |
if you doubt this half drunk heart
it's not my problem it's not my fault when you decided you wanted that heart sunk who am i to say no to going fishing? tossed overboard though i pretended to not feel the hooks to follow after you can see the lines coming out of my spine instead of a hand i'll give you the dice to choke on make your own gamble this time, this turn won't be mine my hands go behind my back, blindly building gallows and i can't say i'm sorry i'll mourn the love i once held in my deepest veins crisscrossing roots that drove me insane i'll see you looking for your face in my words take this now, i'll take the mirror's spark turned up into shards i'll cut the lies from your face there i go, there i went climbing the fences of other people's lives one step ahead of this story that fits too well to hand but here I am in my garden of nouns and stilll, I cannot make you understand. |
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I feel my legs stir to carry me up and away
I told my heart to tell them to let me stay, anchored by good faith i was and i will learn to swim again, as these waves crash over me and i, i will not be drowned with this heavy crown upon my head full of fear, treading water, I'll attend my own rebirth, from the foam I'll rise, Venus De Milo, second sequence, the daughter of fire, out of the flames singing the echoing screams of the joy that fills me, still afraid i become a queen among the fools i made myself, i've been dreaming, i've been dreaming in the daytime while I'm clutching to life when I'm sleeping, but I'm waking, I'm waking up to find my heart has grown and it grows and pounds it pounds so loud and I'm afraid, I'm afraid I think everyone will hear it's pleas to open the windows and let it out to fly, but who am I to clip it's wings? be patient with me when I send my ravens, like this I'll carve our names in the trees between us and crown myself in their flowers, grown out of devotion and rooted deep in the summer sun, rising forever over you. I'll collect the stars in my eyes just to make you love me, and I'm not afraid to say how foolish am I to cling to a sinking ship, if I can't swim, I'll swallow the ocean and become a new sea. |
i'm sorry for bleeding publicly
but who's to notice they'll only take notice when i've bled out, the knives in my back i thought were strength but lies add up into mythology, it doesn't mean that i don't love you but my faith in things i can't see wanes to remind me i'm still human, i'm human too, full of blood i am i'm letting it out for show, just for show i suppose, i throw smoke to make my escapes when you're touching feelings, with your fingers in my organs i can't lie and say i'm not afraid they've grown a part of me now, but i used to pretend to myself that they were not there before i'm trying, i'm trying to take the wool from my eyes but it takes the skin with it's pull. |
hello it looks like it's time for purging nothing to see here unless...
(well you'll know if you know) --------------------------------------- "and when you're in my arms, you know that's where you are safe" I guess this was once thought of as fate but to tell the truth i was only saving face as i stepped out into the sun i tried to scratch my memories i tried to bruise my memories, bleeding the man in front of me i never said i'm sorry, and i'm not about to now "and when a man loves a woman, he ****ing owns her" but i wasn't a woman, i was a fog, i was a vapour touching your skin with poison, living in your limbs forever and in your anguish, i grew stronger, on your despair, i grow stronger. "You are my last bastion of true, honest hope" But the tragedy is, I belonged to no one, I never will so I made the bastard of you, I made the fool of you madness carried me out of your arms, to somewhere far from your bondage you left out of your promised hands and now here I am, still retching up your bastard heart. ----------------------------------------------- but little birds must have their flights, little birds will learn to fight against the tidal waves of bondage, little birds who've earned their name will not follow on your trail you've bent and built into tomorrow's world, and in hindsight, cowed in hunger a little bird will fall from its cage remembering flight, remembering how to fight. ---------------------------------------------- it's all on the line, the tugging of the twine, holding onto our hearts, it's pulling it's pulling and is it fraying tell me the truth right now because i'm losing your language here in my room i'm trying to claw out the slivers you left in me while it pulls at me tangled up, tangled up i'm falling in and out but who am i kidding so twisted up in your misdirection, numbering up your indiscretions, on the dock i prowl at night watching you drowning holding back my hands a human being is not a means to stay afloat here it is you're going to learn to tread water. |
don't stick with it,
it's just voyeuristic, and if you don't quit with this i'm not coming over, deal with it on your own time. when you take the time to give yourself to the clouds, i will not be there to bring you back down. after all, you know everything, except where to find me when i'm burning at the stake. after all everything means nothing, and to go forward we must go backward. try to catch me sharing limbs with someone who's always afraid i wake up to fondness and fanfare sadly, it's shadowing you tuneless, and untrue. |
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----------- i couldn't help it, sending my love through razor wires oops, i'm sorry i ran off to grow my teeth in, to sink my teeth into other skins i'm not sure if i'll be back, if i'll be back soon i guess you can find me if you're looking, after all you always are, aren't you?* -------------- As I reached for him, I shattered him emaciated into time, he became the truest love to find you gave up the galaxy when it rest against my cheekbones, bleeding stars torn open your sky, I'm not far from this mess forever I can't seem to make up my mind |
how could I have given up that life
burdened blackened given to melancholy without mercy burned and blackened an offering at your pyre in memory come and find and fix me for I have grown to be sick again and all of them, they want to be looking like you threatening vaguely while I'm looking for you in the place that I have kept you the place where you shouldn't be I'm sorry to come back here but I've forgotten how to be I'm singing the song that you wrote for me while I'm trying not to bleed remember that I carried pretty words about and if it were that I were braver I'd give the ones that rest in my head back to you. |
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