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07-14-2013, 11:03 PM | #71 (permalink) |
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if you doubt this half drunk heart
it's not my problem it's not my fault when you decided you wanted that heart sunk who am i to say no to going fishing? tossed overboard though i pretended to not feel the hooks to follow after you can see the lines coming out of my spine instead of a hand i'll give you the dice to choke on make your own gamble this time, this turn won't be mine my hands go behind my back, blindly building gallows and i can't say i'm sorry i'll mourn the love i once held in my deepest veins crisscrossing roots that drove me insane i'll see you looking for your face in my words take this now, i'll take the mirror's spark turned up into shards i'll cut the lies from your face there i go, there i went climbing the fences of other people's lives one step ahead of this story that fits too well to hand but here I am in my garden of nouns and stilll, I cannot make you understand. |
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07-24-2013, 11:12 AM | #74 (permalink) |
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I feel my legs stir to carry me up and away
I told my heart to tell them to let me stay, anchored by good faith i was and i will learn to swim again, as these waves crash over me and i, i will not be drowned with this heavy crown upon my head full of fear, treading water, I'll attend my own rebirth, from the foam I'll rise, Venus De Milo, second sequence, the daughter of fire, out of the flames singing the echoing screams of the joy that fills me, still afraid i become a queen among the fools i made myself, i've been dreaming, i've been dreaming in the daytime while I'm clutching to life when I'm sleeping, but I'm waking, I'm waking up to find my heart has grown and it grows and pounds it pounds so loud and I'm afraid, I'm afraid I think everyone will hear it's pleas to open the windows and let it out to fly, but who am I to clip it's wings? be patient with me when I send my ravens, like this I'll carve our names in the trees between us and crown myself in their flowers, grown out of devotion and rooted deep in the summer sun, rising forever over you. I'll collect the stars in my eyes just to make you love me, and I'm not afraid to say how foolish am I to cling to a sinking ship, if I can't swim, I'll swallow the ocean and become a new sea. |
07-27-2013, 01:23 PM | #75 (permalink) |
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i'm sorry for bleeding publicly
but who's to notice they'll only take notice when i've bled out, the knives in my back i thought were strength but lies add up into mythology, it doesn't mean that i don't love you but my faith in things i can't see wanes to remind me i'm still human, i'm human too, full of blood i am i'm letting it out for show, just for show i suppose, i throw smoke to make my escapes when you're touching feelings, with your fingers in my organs i can't lie and say i'm not afraid they've grown a part of me now, but i used to pretend to myself that they were not there before i'm trying, i'm trying to take the wool from my eyes but it takes the skin with it's pull. |
10-11-2013, 09:21 PM | #76 (permalink) |
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hello it looks like it's time for purging nothing to see here unless...
(well you'll know if you know) --------------------------------------- "and when you're in my arms, you know that's where you are safe" I guess this was once thought of as fate but to tell the truth i was only saving face as i stepped out into the sun i tried to scratch my memories i tried to bruise my memories, bleeding the man in front of me i never said i'm sorry, and i'm not about to now "and when a man loves a woman, he ****ing owns her" but i wasn't a woman, i was a fog, i was a vapour touching your skin with poison, living in your limbs forever and in your anguish, i grew stronger, on your despair, i grow stronger. "You are my last bastion of true, honest hope" But the tragedy is, I belonged to no one, I never will so I made the bastard of you, I made the fool of you madness carried me out of your arms, to somewhere far from your bondage you left out of your promised hands and now here I am, still retching up your bastard heart. ----------------------------------------------- but little birds must have their flights, little birds will learn to fight against the tidal waves of bondage, little birds who've earned their name will not follow on your trail you've bent and built into tomorrow's world, and in hindsight, cowed in hunger a little bird will fall from its cage remembering flight, remembering how to fight. ---------------------------------------------- it's all on the line, the tugging of the twine, holding onto our hearts, it's pulling it's pulling and is it fraying tell me the truth right now because i'm losing your language here in my room i'm trying to claw out the slivers you left in me while it pulls at me tangled up, tangled up i'm falling in and out but who am i kidding so twisted up in your misdirection, numbering up your indiscretions, on the dock i prowl at night watching you drowning holding back my hands a human being is not a means to stay afloat here it is you're going to learn to tread water. |
11-07-2013, 11:48 AM | #77 (permalink) |
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don't stick with it,
it's just voyeuristic, and if you don't quit with this i'm not coming over, deal with it on your own time. when you take the time to give yourself to the clouds, i will not be there to bring you back down. after all, you know everything, except where to find me when i'm burning at the stake. after all everything means nothing, and to go forward we must go backward. try to catch me sharing limbs with someone who's always afraid i wake up to fondness and fanfare sadly, it's shadowing you tuneless, and untrue. |
04-16-2014, 09:02 PM | #79 (permalink) |
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I know right?
----------- i couldn't help it, sending my love through razor wires oops, i'm sorry i ran off to grow my teeth in, to sink my teeth into other skins i'm not sure if i'll be back, if i'll be back soon i guess you can find me if you're looking, after all you always are, aren't you?* -------------- As I reached for him, I shattered him emaciated into time, he became the truest love to find you gave up the galaxy when it rest against my cheekbones, bleeding stars torn open your sky, I'm not far from this mess forever I can't seem to make up my mind |
04-30-2014, 01:30 AM | #80 (permalink) |
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how could I have given up that life
burdened blackened given to melancholy without mercy burned and blackened an offering at your pyre in memory come and find and fix me for I have grown to be sick again and all of them, they want to be looking like you threatening vaguely while I'm looking for you in the place that I have kept you the place where you shouldn't be I'm sorry to come back here but I've forgotten how to be I'm singing the song that you wrote for me while I'm trying not to bleed remember that I carried pretty words about and if it were that I were braver I'd give the ones that rest in my head back to you. |
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