Whaddupdeezy

All the songs i write are uaually for a post-hardcore format ...sooo yea!


* * * * * * * * * "What I Fear Most"* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
All these lies have forsaken me.
I stand alone in the dark, locked away from the world,
this anger tears me from the inside out
and i remain crippled in tears.
Agony shreds my heart to pieces and all i can do is scream.
These emotions are so overwhelming.

(Chorus)
Please forgive me for what I've done to you,
what ive said to you,
how ive lied to you.
Ive become what i fear most.
A monster who hurts the one he loves.

* *(Breakdown/Interlude) Disappointment fills the hearts of my beloved.
These emotions have corrupted me and turned into what i fear the most.

* *I don't know what was going on in my head,
i was blinded by the fog of insanity,
and only forgiveness will lead me away.*

(Chorus)
Please forgive me for what ive done to you,
what ive said to you,
how ive lied to you.
Ive become what i fear most.
A monster who hurts the one he loves.

Daniisarus

I love this haha, is it based on a personal experience?

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"Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve" - Napoleon Hill

Whaddupdeezy

Hey guys, this is a poem i wrote this morning about the suicide of a girl a cared very much about, lemme know what you think

"Suicide is Homocide"

These days without you have been so miserable,
So much pain has seemed to blind me from where i must go.
Skies are grey and the sunlight is dim,
What used to be happiness has turned into hatred.
Memories of you are played over and over in my head,
They only bring tears and agony,
As if the weight of the world is crushing my heart.
You're now buried under six feet of dirt,
And i'm six feet under sorrow
Something must fill this hole in my heart.
God, please give me a sign; just help me move forward.
I miss our endless nights,
Laying beneath the stars hand in hand,
Thinking of what could be, but now why could've been.
Time is not on my side,
As the hole in my heart grows bigger, the scars on my wrist grow deeper.

These nights without you are worse than the last,
Dreams of love become nightmares of loss.
I wake up in tears knowing it was all a dream,
But that doesnt change the fact that you're not here with me.
I wish i knew that you weren't right,
I could've intervened,
But now you're an angel, just like you used to be.
They give me these pills to help forget this tragedy,
But how could i forget my first love?
These feelings of anger become feelings of numbness,
And my depression grows worse, like a tumor in my brain.
Why did you hav to leave ao early?
This isn't what He had in mind,
Hopefully soon we will meet with the divine.
The man you once loved has cried his last tear
As the others around him watch his sanity slip away.

Tonight, i feel like dying.
Tonight, i feel it will be true.
Tonight, i feel that doing so will bring me closer to you.

I guess some could say that suicide is homocide.

Geekoid

Wow. Is that all true? If so, props to you for being honest enough to share. Those are some heavy emotions you're dealing with, well executed in the poem. You've got some pretty good concepts and images throughout, and it sounds genuine. I'm really sorry to hear about your loss.

MichaelForbes

Oh, my God. I can feel your pain through your amazing lyrics.

God bless your friend. Her pain must have been unbearable to do what she did. We can never know what drives a person to such desperation.

It's great therapy to channel your feelings through music. It will help the healing process. You have a talent for lyrics. Keep at it.

Michael

Sansa Stark

A lot is two words

homocide is not a word at all

Whaddupdeezy

Like i said, i wrote it that morning, spell check/grammar check was not a thing haha
Also thank you guys for lettin me know what you think

Whaddupdeezy

This song, and everything else i write, is based on a personal experience, long with some exaggeration to help bring out more emotion.

Whaddupdeezy

This song is about my brest friend who Overdosed and died this morning today...

"Ashton"
Can you feel the sickness crawling inside?
Does it tear you apart from bone to bone?

This doesnt feel right anymore,
All just a dream
Yet the pain is so real
I dont even know how im supposed to feel

This darkness fills my insides,
All just a dream
I looked you in the eyes before you left this world

I just wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just wanna fight against how i feel this way
Why did you leave so early?
You know we needed you longer,
life without you is growing worse day by day

Please God,
Tell me why it had to be this way
What ever you have planned is not right
Oh, I pray to you
Just look over me while youre gone,
because now is when i need you most

Just get outta my head
I didnt need to see what i saw today.
I woke to a lifeless body staring me right in the eye
I miss you dearly
So please watch over me