Scar Tissue

[JcgNme]

I sit here and panic patiently
Stuck in a place I can’t explain and that can’t be explained to me
These demons keep me awake
No prayer to the lord cause there is no soul to take
Scattered thought sometimes confuse me my sanity intact but I refuse to admit these demons getting through to me
To be honest I enjoy the company that abuses me
I push and provoke them lose control of them then blame them when the relapse is over and call it closure
They been behind my eyes for all of my life stuck on the inside
Wind always blowing in my mind always night so shelter is hard to find
Please kill this vibe

If the desires of the flesh define the demon then I’m fighting myself and can’t between them
It’ll take a tactician to get my loved ones to an intervention
My loved ones are hard to find
Because they are works of fiction
Ones that shared thier blood with me as I do have a lack of emotion caused by dosing that causes narcosis
I’m the magician committed to ingredient getting and mixing my potion devoting extreme devotions to these insane ideas and notions
I’m older time to dispose of it lord knows it is
This chapter ends and a new one begins where the letters I write Dena is sent
Expose me to closure I’ll do the closing after all the curves and years that got me here and the time spent between my ears **** amazes me how I can outline the crazy that encases me so lazily
Writing with no patience patiently