Depression and suicide

~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ · 04-16-2012, 08:43 AM

If you have persistent sad feelings, constantly feel guilt, lack energy or motivation, don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning.. etc, persisting for more than a few weeks– you're probably suffering from depression.

I'm just coming out of a really bad bout of it with the help of medication.

Earlier this year I did have a lot of suicidal thoughts, and spent a lot of time looking at images of suicide victims. I didn't express these feelings to anyone for a while, and that only made things worse. Finally a kind soul was nice enough to hear me out, that coupled with medication and a new goal in life to work toward seems to have given me what I needed to get through it. I've been in and out of depression for all of my adult and teenage years, but this one was much different as it had a direct and tangible cause, albeit one that isn't exactly common amongst most people.

I'm not saying this for sympathy, I just thought I'd share my experience now that I'm on the upswing.

~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ · 04-16-2012, 09:06 AM

If you've had it constantly for five years, I wouldn't hesitate to say you have clinical depression. It's not always like it is on films where the characters drown themselves in whiskey and try to off themselves every given opportunity–but it can certainly impede your quality of life.

I'd consider seeing a physician you trust. What could it hurt?

PoorOldPo · 04-16-2012, 09:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Howard the Duck

i'm not so much suffering from depression or suicidal thoughts as most of the time, i have anger management issues

i really want to lay into people that smile at me for no reason, really want to tell the next person who tries to sell me something to seriously eff off

sometimes, i feel like conducting some massive genocide and killing everybody in the whole damn human race

woah.

~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ · 04-16-2012, 09:25 AM

Well the irony is, that's most likely a sign that you do have depression. Not wanting to do anything about it or feeling unmotivated is a symptom, and maybe after 5 years you've just become complacent about it?

The Batlord · 04-16-2012, 09:29 AM

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Originally Posted by Unchained Ballad

You see, I just feel like I've had that somewhat constantly for the last...bugger, 5 or so years; and that sounds really, really unlikely to me. I can't help but thinking I'm somehow exaggerating. Especially because I've never really had any particular reason to feel this way.

About having a goal in life: I think that's probably one of the most important things for someone to get through rough patches, and since I'm rather lost in that respect, I just give up whenever something proves to be relatively difficult, which obviously isn't good for your self esteem or for your image.

I'm glad that you're feeling well now, and I can only hope that one day I will too, but I find that ridiculously hard to believe.

This is basically how I've felt for the last decade almost. Not black, unbearable depression. Just a sort of constant apathy, complete lack of self esteem, and low grade misery. I don't think about suicide that much, probably because it just doesn't get bad enough to make me think, "This is so horrible that I have to end it and I don't care how", I just sort of sit in my room and narcissistically brood. I guess my ability to care about much of anything has just been slowly drained from me until I'm left in this constant sort of boring grayness.

Dr_Rez · 04-16-2012, 06:02 PM

What most people dont realize is the medication wont clear or get rid of your depression. Its really only (at least for me) useful when your in a really bad bout of it and not thinking clearly at all. The meds will help you get at least a little bit of perspective so you might be able to change your way of thinking at least a small bit.

Anyone who has been depressed knows times when it hits really hard. THAT is what those meds are for. I am no doctor but I have plently of experience and I would recommend only taking them if you absolutely need to.

Above · 04-16-2012, 07:01 PM

My mood changes from so happy I could spin around like wheeee to suicidal in the space of ten minutes, about eight times per day. I don't even know :c

FETCHER. · 04-17-2012, 11:40 AM

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Originally Posted by These guys

If you have persistent sad feelings, constantly feel guilt, lack energy or motivation, don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning.. etc, persisting for more than a few weeks– you're probably suffering from depression.

I'm just coming out of a really bad bout of it with the help of medication.

Earlier this year I did have a lot of suicidal thoughts, and spent a lot of time looking at images of suicide victims. I didn't express these feelings to anyone for a while, and that only made things worse. Finally a kind soul was nice enough to hear me out, that coupled with medication and a new goal in life to work toward seems to have given me what I needed to get through it. I've been in and out of depression for all of my adult and teenage years, but this one was much different as it had a direct and tangible cause, albeit one that isn't exactly common amongst most people.

I'm not saying this for sympathy, I just thought I'd share my experience now that I'm on the upswing.

I've geniunely felt like that since I was young. I'm ALWAYS tired and never have any motivation.

~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ · 04-17-2012, 12:18 PM

I don't want to push any kind of drugs on you guys, Aurora and UB, but you may want to look into the nootropic racetam called Aniracetam, or the less potent Piracetam. I'm on my first week of dosing and I've never felt this kind of motivation before. Thoughts are clear and articulate, memory is improved, and my concentration is better than it's ever been.

As someone who has always lacked motivation... I just can't say enough about this stuff.

FETCHER. · 04-17-2012, 12:26 PM

I rarely have sad thoughts anymore but that's probably because I'm always high. I'll definitely look that stuff up and if it helps my motivation issues, you get a brownie point

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04-16-2012, 08:43 AM	#421 (permalink)
~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 4,538	If you have persistent sad feelings, constantly feel guilt, lack energy or motivation, don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning.. etc, persisting for more than a few weeks– you're probably suffering from depression. I'm just coming out of a really bad bout of it with the help of medication. Earlier this year I did have a lot of suicidal thoughts, and spent a lot of time looking at images of suicide victims. I didn't express these feelings to anyone for a while, and that only made things worse. Finally a kind soul was nice enough to hear me out, that coupled with medication and a new goal in life to work toward seems to have given me what I needed to get through it. I've been in and out of depression for all of my adult and teenage years, but this one was much different as it had a direct and tangible cause, albeit one that isn't exactly common amongst most people. I'm not saying this for sympathy, I just thought I'd share my experience now that I'm on the upswing.

04-16-2012, 09:06 AM	#422 (permalink)
~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 4,538	If you've had it constantly for five years, I wouldn't hesitate to say you have clinical depression. It's not always like it is on films where the characters drown themselves in whiskey and try to off themselves every given opportunity–but it can certainly impede your quality of life. I'd consider seeing a physician you trust. What could it hurt?

04-16-2012, 09:25 AM	#424 (permalink)
~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 4,538	Well the irony is, that's most likely a sign that you do have depression. Not wanting to do anything about it or feeling unmotivated is a symptom, and maybe after 5 years you've just become complacent about it?

04-17-2012, 12:18 PM	#429 (permalink)
~~someonecompletelyrandom~~ Account Disabled Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 4,538	I don't want to push any kind of drugs on you guys, Aurora and UB, but you may want to look into the nootropic racetam called Aniracetam, or the less potent Piracetam. I'm on my first week of dosing and I've never felt this kind of motivation before. Thoughts are clear and articulate, memory is improved, and my concentration is better than it's ever been. As someone who has always lacked motivation... I just can't say enough about this stuff.