Usually I feel depressed because I messaged or called or went to some girls house/phone like an idiot.

blame the big ole battleaxe whales you been shaggin with after drinkin, dont blame the alcohol


hate the player not the game

being the bottom of a corporation is not fun. I get ****ted on constantly. I've been called gay, russian, a thug, black, a girl and a bunch more **** just because i don't have a typical personality. I get teased for my teeth, my lack of sexual activity recently, smoking, etc every day by the most beautiful woman you could imagine. I finally said **** it and quit but the reputation is gonna haunt me now. They've exploited my mothers M.S.

It's amazing how a bunch of people living frivilously have the nerve to give me **** about my spending habits, eating habits etc while they're literally wearing more than i'll make this month. Its confounding and if you try to give them **** they call me a communist, or a girl or a thug, in no apparent order, i wish they would ****ing stick with one at least

these corporations install this kinda conditioning where everyone has the same personality type. It sounds crazy but you hear the same vernacular constantly, the same responses, same attitudes same habits. I'll never use the word "perfect" again. This country is going to **** i dont know if im actually depressed but im definetly feeling like im ****ed going forward

The cops at this place constantly harass me. I made the mistake of saying "stop reading my ****ing texts" in a text sent to myself, knowing theyre tapping my phone (sounds crazy but they ****ing are for the companies liability purposes) and now theyre extremeley on me. The goons at work hate me too cuz all the corporate people say im a thug but im not so the actual thugs think im a bitch, everyone is against me its ****ing nuts america is not ok

Why not get a new job?

ill try. my info is going to get sold to new employer unless its privately owned. im going to try my best though

I have a friend who committed Suicide. He was a Manic Depressive and he never sought help. It's not cowardly but it can be seen as selfish as we are the ones left behind to deal with the Fallout. I am angry with him for not taking the help he was offered truth be told.

I know what you mean, it's difficult not to feel angry when we see the pain and shattered lives they leave behind. But do we have a right to be angry? Perhaps we're selfish for feeling that way?

My depression has been better recently, and I've decided "**** it, I'm not going to get bent out of shape anymore" because I'm tired of the stress I give myself. I've been purposely more annoying to piss people off in my own passive aggressive way, which seems to be working to my favor. I'm just working a **** ton to save money for things to get on with my life. I'm going to get out of this town and play music, I swear it on my life.

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Agreed. Good to see you have a good outlook.