I'm pulling my ****ing hair out trying to get my medication covered. I'm this close to calling up the insurance company and point blank asking them "Do you want me to end up killing myself?" because I'm really feeling not being properly medicated, and I thought I had a good plan to get my high as **** deductible down (therapist bills), but they didn't even take half of them. I really don't have 300 dollars around to have my "think good" pills.

Edit: I'm really trying my best not to come off crazy and psychotic, but I'm feeling pretty hopeless, and the thought of not being alive to deal with this level of greed is pretty tempting.

Oh **** man. Whatever you do, don't stop trying. Let us know how it goes, and if there's any way I can help I'd gladly do it.

not a psycho just.. not that good of a person tbh

And I don't think it's that "they don't like their own marriage" they've just been together forever and so maybe things get boring...


I think if she wasn't married I wouldn't even be interested which is kinda the twisted part

If I seriously had the option I probably would have by now but I only ever see them together lol. Probably for the best... the fall out wouldn't be worth it lol.

For all I know she just likes using me to try to make her husband jealous and that doesn't even seem to work. He never seems the least bit phased. In fact we get along well... Like I said he's a pretty chill dude.

I had another crisis moment but I'm already feeling better about it.

I had a coworker that used to come into work drunk all the time and pick fights. He has a history of being drunk and actually fighting people despite their zero tolerance policies. With my two months of employment I have been challenged to fight him 5 times. He's threatened me. He's treated me like absolute ****. My 3rd week there I spoke out about it because we had been lectured about workplace behavior as a group multiple times even though he's the only one that's doing it. Since then despite him treating me like absolute dog **** he was still better, as in not threatening me and giving me hard stares, so I tried to be patient with him because I completely understand how hard it is to deal with anger issues and alcoholism and etc. etc. which in retrospect is unfair to myself because I was holding me to a higher standard than I was holding him. On Tuesday, the first real low day I've had since November he starts arguing with me over something stupid and treating me like **** again so I lost my temper and pushed a stack of cages over. He tells me to get out so I go to calm down but he and our other coworker that he simps for go to snitch on me so I walk back over angrily and immediately get fired which really just triggered me into panic mode. Long story short he challenged me to a fight again and since I was already fired I accepted. He walked away with a bloody mouth, I walked away with a bruised fist and unemployed. I don't know if this is part of the pattern or if It's just a situational thing but I'm going to be seeking disability as much as I don't want to.

oh jesus that really sucks. I must admit I'm not sure what seeking disability entails exactly but regardless of those details I fully support any kind of financial stability for you, you deserve it. That guy is an absolute *******, no wonder you snapped. I hope you're ok.

I'm okay, and during the HR meeting to let me know I was fired, (I deserved it TBH I wouldn't have been fired if I'd have left when I was originally told I was fired there is no excuse for my behavior and I ultimately let myself down.) they got lectured about knowing he comes into work drunk, knowing he tries to fight people, knowing that he actually has fought people and letting him get away with it. It would be far less upsetting if there wasn't a blatant double standard there.

yeah exactly, it just sounds very unfair

Well at least you ****ed him up. Maybe he'll think twice before he tries that **** again. Maddrox and Monoxide would be proud.

****ed him up is an overstatement, but he definitely won't stop. He's also known for getting into bar fights and coming in hurt because of it.

I think it's funny that the brewery has higher standards than the University.

Edit: As unhealthy as it is to say I'm glad I got to fight him. I wanted to do it so bad.