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06-14-2019, 10:42 AM | #411 (permalink) |
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My Sad can beat up your Sad
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06-14-2019, 10:59 AM | #413 (permalink) | |
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Happened when I was probably at the lowest point of my life, too. Unemployed and depressed. Completely unable to pay for the inevitable fucknami of medical bills that come with cancer. Convinced myself that I was probably going to die. And I had also just started playing through Silent Hill 2 when it happened. Kept playing as I waited for the day of my appointment. Nothing else to do. Beat it in maybe two or three days. Cried a little at the part with the flaming staircase. The kind of crying where your body is so done that you can't actually squeeze out any tears, but your brain is doing it for you.
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06-14-2019, 11:03 AM | #414 (permalink) | |
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Yeah! I was totally trying to get into a depression pissing contest and not trying to relate to what they were going through!
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But if our Sads could beat up and destroy each other that would be great.
I'm so sorry WWWP. Hang in there
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06-14-2019, 11:15 AM | #416 (permalink) |
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06-14-2019, 11:36 AM | #417 (permalink) |
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I've been sleeping better over the past few weeks and that's a big thing for me as I've struggled with sleep walking and night terrors for a pretty good portion of my life. Still to this day I can say with certainty that I've seen things vividly but it comes off as crazy so I won't get fully into that right now.
I've been keeping myself busy and trying to battle with my brain when it combats my will to keep going. I try to tell myself that I don't think i'll ever get to a point of no return but I can't say it's impossible. I think what helps is that I've been able to come up with my own coping mechanisms that I know help keep those thoughts to a minimum or as much as I can anyway. The thing that has really helped a lot was taking a break from weed then starting up again. It brings me to a place where I can finally just be at peace with myself and not have to be constantly going through scenarios in my head and fighting myself. And yes, I do talk to myself in some cases because hearing this vocally helps me process what I'm going through. The thing that's helping a lot as well is secluding myself and allowing things to process naturally. Not pushing myself out of my boundaries just to attempt at a normal social life. It doesn't work for me, and I've come to accept that. I'm much better on my own and dealing with my problems head on and working on ways to help myself. I just feel like a burden to people and it doesn't help me feel any better about myself. I'm just not a social person in my free time. I work with people daily but that's different. Depression and anxiety are two topics that I wish were spoken even just a bit more openly than it is now. And people are very open about it now, I'm not saying they're not. I'm not afraid to admit that I've been dealing with both for a pretty good portion of my life. It really started to hit once I turned 22 or 23 if I remember correctly. And I feel like it's made me stronger as a person because of the things that I believe to be true, whether other people believe it or not. But, having a good job and a place to go every day and night is certainly helping. I'm not home for about 12 hours every day during the week, and me loving to be outside, it's a true gift that I have the situation that I have now when it comes to work. That's why I'm so passionate about my job. It's the whole experience that I get to put myself through every day that helps me take one step further from my own dark space. It's a day to day process that I'm certainly ok with dealing with. I accepted that a long time ago. But some days are very very hard and I've had plenty of those recently. Days where I just don't even bother getting out of bed, or letting things just pile up before they get a bit too out of control. But I always fix everything back to the way it was before. So yeah. |
06-14-2019, 11:44 AM | #418 (permalink) |
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You should put those nightly hallucinations to good use and start writing. You might be surprised by how therapeutic and satisfying it can be.
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