"Charles, do you have anything to say to the group?"

*begins reading from volume 1*

"And on the twenty-fifth day of July in the year of Our Lord nineteen hundred and eighty-six was birthed a piteous mutant child..."

Sounds like a grind no doubt but that’s awesome she has access to it

and most importantly and even triumphantly congratulations for taking action Wolf

Wolf today:

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Wolf tomorrow:

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Lucem my dude are you bipolar 1 or 2? It's looking like there is going to be a new diagnosis in my future.

Absolutely Bipolar 1 but I don't remember my official diagnosis. I know myself and I know I get extreme mania and I have been delusional, but it's weird because I second guess everything I do or think so typically I know when I'm being delusional if that makes sense.

Edit: That's kind of a good thing because now you know how to better deal with things and hopefully can treat it with medication.

What about you, Elph? Are you Bipolar 1 or 2?

You said you were diagnosed with manic depression and manic depression is the old medical term for bipolar disorder I just don't like calling it manic depression because it's a misleading term.

Why not?

Makes sense.

My team is leading toward bp 2 for me. I don't think I've ever had a real manic episode, no delusions or anything, but hypomania definitely fits. I turned down their offers for benzos and other sedatives/mood stabilizers, but I am starting a new blood pressure medication (???) to address ptsd nightmares, and we're going above the FDA approved amount of prozac :cool:

I've been getting a lot of those too but they aren't like nightmares they're just dreams that put me into an emotional state and I'll wake up slamming my head into what ever I'm laying on or something. I honestly prefer them to being awake most of the time.

How does blood pressure medication affect that?

I guess it slows down the adrenaline that's triggered metabolically. I get them constantly, I'm always cycling between 4-5 different nightmare/dreams (I hear you, they aren't like running for my life nightmares just somatic flashbacks). They're always the same and I always become lucid once I recognize the scene and then I experience the rest like I'm directing the characters.

Group was ok. We talked about "urge surfing." There are a lot of people in recovery there, and it's interesting how much I can relate my experiences with eating disorders with their experiences of addiction. I don't think it's going to be enough for me, I need more individualized attention, but it's a good start. And I'm only like the 3rd worst looking in the room so.