It's not a lack of confidence, just I always start hating people I know. Kind of fucked up. I've been in "relationships" before, they just don't work out.

Eh, to some people alcohol can be just as bad. I've gotten to the point where I've drank too much/abused it too many times and now just one sip makes me feel better. Not a good sign in my opinion. And alcoholism runs in the family.

Just need change, that's all I guess.

so you are like the reverse of her situation.

Just because alcoholism runs in your family doesn't mean you will become an alcoholic. I used to think that way but I don't anymore. You are your own individual person. You can control whether or not you choose to become one you aren't predestined to become one.

1. I have, at last count, 23 tattoos. Four of them are for my ex-fiancee, who thinks because I have not bothered to cover them that I still hold a torch for him. He actually bullied me into them to prove that I was faithful. Ooooops.

2. A huge chunk of my life is concealing my various mental illnesses, disorders, and idiosyncrasies. I don't care about people thinking I'm crazy, I cannot stand pity or being used as inspiration porn to people who haven't been through the same horrible shit I have.

3. My favourite thing about myself is my empathetic nature, however there are two things (loneliness and self loathing) that I can't empathise with because I've never felt either, and it makes me feel guilty.

4. I like pain and having bruises,cuts, and other marks on my body.

5. I have really horrible eyesight

6. Dudes treat me like I am a living Manic Pixie Dream Girl trope.

7. I define myself as queer but I only do that for plebes. My actual identity is thus: I am a high femme presenting agender pansexual who is sexually inclined toward masculine but androgynous people of varied genders, but more romantically inclined to those who are female identified. I am almost incapable of having romantic feelings for a man. Except for a very special one. I'm completely genderless myself though, I don't even feel that my body is gendered which is strange as fuck to most genderqueer people since most experience bodily dysphoria, especially those who are AFAB (assigned female at birth) like myself.

8. I'm going back to school in the fall :)

9. I have a really terrible sense of humour, but I think of my persona as the biggest joke there is.

10. I always play a persona publicly, not because I'm afraid to be myself, but it's amusing to see how people react to the exaggerated caricature of myself that I portray. It also serves as a filter for people that don't deserve to see the deeper parts of my personality. Shallowness is such a turn off.

11. I once gave myself a black eye last year to see if anyone would even notice. I did it with a Beauty and the Beast light up mirror :laughing:

12. This is the longest I've gone without a boyfriend since I was about 13/14

13. I also once tried to cut my face off when I was 18/19

14. I fucking hate touching money

15. Cruelty comes disturbingly easy to me, I find someone's weak spots and exploit them without thinking when I'm hurt. I wish I wouldn't do this, sometimes. Other times I don't feel bad for it, because that person is a cunt.

16. My new middle name is Matilda

17. I'm torn between choosing a traditional, married (to a dude)/children/career life or moving to some rando field in Europe and starting a commune and having a Boston marriage with any (or all) of my female friends.

18. I never answer my phone when people call it

19. I don't know why I brought this thread back

20. I managed to not have to be hospitalised, put in rehab or detox, or in the psych ward so far this year. Yay!

21 - 25. Fuck the rest of this list

1. I love lists
2. I have a tattoo of a love heart on my hip
3. I love all animals
4. I like all types of music
5. I eat seafood most days
6. I live near the beach
7. I don't drink alcohol
8. I don't smoke
9. I don't do drugs
10. I have been in a same sex relationship
11. I like travelling
12. I love anything Versace
13. I am an only child
14. My parents are divorced
15. I love the outdoors
16. I like to cook
17. I want to dye my hair blonde
18. I love chocolate but only top quality ones
19. I would love to live in Europe
20. I love anything Valentino
21. I went to ballet lessons for 8 years
22. I play the piano
23. I love babies and want one (I think)
24. I love all sorts of food
25. I don't drink coffee

1 I can type around 100 wpm
2 Usually win @ Bingo multiple times
3 Colonial country is my home's theme
4 Pick, peel, and sometimes eat my hangnails
5 I hate bell peppers.
6 I'm not an outdoorsy person.
7 Suffer bad hayfever/allergies.
8 Swat flies, mosquitos, and gnats.
9 Haven't had a cup of coffee since Monday
10 Am not wearing a bra today
11 Think I might have vertigo
12 Hi
13 I get scared easily
14 " bite my cats ears (gently)
15 salivate sometimes when I'm cuddling them
16 have silver glitter on my acrylics
17 want to have all crystal
18 want to have all silver cutlery
19 Pee more than the average person
20 Think this is TMI even if I hadn't said that
21 think a kid generated this thread bc it should've stopped sooner
22 Don't like black licorice
23 Put Tobasco on almost everything
24 Get sweaty hands a lot
25 Love lily of the valley scent

1. I've two dogs and a pussy.
2. I'm in a band, Wolves In Sheepskin.
3. I had luscious locks for 8 years until I chopped it last summer.
4. My sister is one of the few people (I believe the number is less than ten) who have been attacked by a coyote in Arizona.
5. I wear glasses.
6. My group and I have been banned from three venues and two jam rooms for excessive noise.
7. I have a medical marijuana card, which I take full advantage of.
8. I'm a descendant of both the first woman to walk on Plymouth Rock as well as one of the women who were burned at the stake in Salem.
9. Apart from swatted insects, I've never killed an animal.
10. I could eat pho until I pop.
11. I've several hundred audio recordings of both my band and myself.
12. I live in a gated community because my dad's afraid of nearby Mexicans.
13. The first time I went to a horse race, I won $330 dollars on a single bet and got to go down to the winner's circle.
14. I've lived in California for most of my life, only to be interrupted by a 7 year stay in Arizona.
15. My smile is stuck.
16. I've a makeshift drumkit made up of cans, tins, and boxes.
17. I overdosed on Xanax, Vicoden, and a wealth of other pills when I was 16. I wrote an article about my experience and got an award for it.
18. I saw Slayer, Megadeth, and Testament for my first concert.
19. I'm 6' 4" and wear a size 14 shoe.
20. I can throat sing.
21. The only food I won't eat is shellfish unless it's in something like sushi.
22. My favourite artist is Captain Beefheart & His Magic Band.
23. My favourite film is There Will Be Blood.
24. I don't care for watching sports.
25. I'm 19 years old.

:tramp:

1. My favorite city is Sevilla, Spain.
2. I know how to count to 10 in 15 languages.
3. I can say the alphabet backwards in less than 3 seconds.
4. I am a snake according to the Chinese zodiac.
5. I have been to 30 countries.
6. My parents were never married but stayed together until I was 16.
7. I get winded really easily but I'm not overweight.
8. Although I only shave my legs when I have to, I am very careful about hair anywhere else (except on my head).
9. I do pilates at least twice a week and dance for 10 minutes on all the other days.
10. I like reading about, fantasizing about, and acting out S&M.
11. My favorite color is a combination of pink and purple.
12. I know how to develop pictures manually in a darkroom.
13. I love Volkswagen Cabrios.
14. I take three forms of transportation to work everyday: private minibus, ferry, and public bus.
15. I can read music and play violin.
16. I am an origami expert.
17. I write a lot; I've kept a diary since the age of 8.
18. I believe in good luck charms.
19. I'm an atheist.
20. I was class rank 9 in my high school class of 300.
21. I'm afraid of flying.
22. I usually get bored trying to watch TV or movies by myself.
23. I love computer and video games, though.
24. I'm allergic to cigarette smoke.
25. I have an 8-month old sister who is half Chinese and a baby model for a clothing magazine in Guangzhou.

THAT'S A WRAP!

You don't have to be overweight to be out of shape. Also if you smoke that makes sense as well.

but like a few more down you say you do pilates so ummm.

I suspect but have never confirmed that I may have a mild form of asthma. I literally cannot breathe after running for 30 seconds or so. But maybe I just need more exercise. :laughing: I dunno, my super lazy bf can run for like 20 minutes and just laughs at me when I fall behind. Every time. ALso I'm allergic to cigarette smoke and I have never smoked anything in my life. :shrug:

I said bullshit out loud to number 3. I'd have to see video footage of that.

Also what are these 15 languages?

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While I'm not willing to put footage of myself doing this on the internets, this guy did, and I'm not too much slower than he is..



My co-worker just timed me at 2.7 seconds. :D

Mandarin, Cantonese, Japanese, Spanish, Romanian, French, Portuguese, Italian, English, Arabic, Turkish, Hungarian, Basque, German, and Persian (Farsi).

Impressive, what language is Basque? I mean what country is it related to?

Basque is a language from the Northeast region of Spain and Southwest part of France, also known as the "Basque Region" (Basque: Euskal Herria) Long prosecuted by dictator Francisco Franco (for not being 100% Spanish purebred), Basque speakers were not allowed to speak the language or practice their traditions during the period after the Civil War. Since the end of the 1990s/early 2000s, the language has had a comeback because kids are learning it in school and the capital city (Bilbao) is using it everywhere again. The generation born between the 1950s-1970s have little/no knowledge of Basque. Mostly just old people and young people speak it, but young people tend to only speak it as a second language. It's considered one of the oldest languages in the world, and has no traceable connection to any other modern language.

I find it all very interesting. Sorry for the tangent.

Hmmm sounds like Latin but it's being used more.

1. I play guitar
2. I've played guitar with Turbo B from Snap!
3. My friend is related to Steve Kmak (Disturbed)
4. I have another friend who knows Joel Hoekstra (TSO)
5. I've been playing guitar for over 30 years
6. I'm still not that good
7. I practice playing guitar about an hour every week on average
8. I won an Army Achievement award for drafting
9. I worked on the drawings for the score board at Madison SG
10. I developed the Drawing Tracker software for ComEd/GEIS
11. I can't remember how/what I did in #10
12. I just shaved today for the first time since the NHL playoffs
13. I once studied/practiced Zen Buddhism
14. I've been homeless
15. I've never been anywhere tropical
16. I need a vacation
17. My eyes are deteriorating
18. I bike about 60-70 miles per week on average
19. I'm an old fart
20. I met Dave Murray (Iron Maiden)
21. I'm going to see kid rock on my B-Day with 12 other people
22. Everyone in #21 better buy me a beer
23. Not all at the same time though
24. My daughter left for New Jersey for the weekend
25. I miss her already

1. I have a chronic pain condition and have opiates every day.
2. I love my breasts.
3. I'm addicted to beef jerky.
4. My parents call me "princess"
5. My favourite colour is pink.
6. I've seen the movie Titanic over 20 times.
7. I lived through thousands of earthquakes, many of which were over magnitude 5 and a 6.3 which killed 185 people.
8. I only date international men. Kiwi guys are awful.
9. My favourite flowers are roses.
10. I always forget to change the month of my calender.
11. I have an incurable disease.
12. I have 13 soft toys on my bed (and I'm 26, I will never grow up!).
13. I've always wanted to be in a band like the Cranberries and record an album about my past depression.
14. When I was a child I wanted to be an Astronomer or a Pathologist.
15. I style my room as "old hollywood" with Audrey Hepburn, Vivienne Leigh and Marilyn Monroe as my inspiration.
16. My hair gets EVERYWHERE. My boyfriend told me he has hair over all his stuff after moving to Christchurch!
17. I always sleep naked, winter to summer.
18. People tend to think of me as really bubbly and cheerful. At my last job I was secretly named Bubbles.
19. I think about my Granddad who passed away when I was 13. He is my inspiration because he was an incredible person which is what I want to be to my children/grandchildren.
20. I'm afraid of commitment, things like marriage and babies scare the hell out of me.
21. I get a lot of nightmares, possibly due to opiates.
22. I used to model for a boutique shop as an ad in the paper.
23. I am mentally really stoic. I've lived through many bad situations and still can laugh and be myself.
24. I think the female body is the most beautiful living art form.
25. My stereo is 12 years old and still works perfectly.

Vanilla! We are very alike re: 2, 5, 6, 8, 14, 17, 18, 23, and 24. Yay for bubbly people! And titanic! And wannabe astronomers!

Wow we really are similar! I always thought you were an intelligent woman, particularly from your writing style and blogs. :)

It would be really cool to meet you in real life, I think you, me and Mel (Burning Down) would have a Sex in the City vibe going on. I would most likely be Samantha because I am blonde and obsessed with sex. ;)

1. I'm deathly afraid of bees
2. I'm an only child
3. I like vanilla more than chocolate when it comes to Ice cream
4. I drink my coffee black and strong
5. I have three dogs at my parents place (well one of them is ry mine) they're all Boston. Terriers. My boyfriend and I have a chihuahua.
6. I strongly believe the world would be a better place if the Star Wars prequels didn't exist
7. I've studied abroad in both Europe and China
8. I have an inappropriate, dark, sense of humor sometimes, but other times I have a very silly, absurd sense of humor
9. I'm Greek on my Dad's side; and proud of my heritage
10. I spend way too much time on my cell texting, reading, playing SongPop, Words With Friends and What's the Phrase.
11. I only recently went to a gay bar for my first time, and tipped a stripper upon pressure from a friend who's birthday it is
12. I love Portland
13. I watch bad movies for fun sometimes
14. I was who Carly Simon wrote that song about
15. I believe that almost everything can be explained. Ie there's a good explanation for almost anything
16. Puns are a horrible low form of comedy but that doesn't stop me from using them..a lot. I have no shame.
17. My favorite fruit (besides my bf) is a strawberry
18. I find olives to be like gatherings with my extended family: only tolerable with a LOT of alcohol
19. My drink of choice is a Long Island or a Rum & Coke
20. I'm a pretty picky & healthy eater. I don't really eat fast food and very rarely drink pop
21. I don't think I've ever had a wet dream
22. I have a decent sized vinyl collection.
23. Night by Elie Wiesel, while a great book, is probably the most depressing book I've ever read
24. I've shaved my legs before, and usually keep them shaved in non summer months cause I like them that way.
25. I had a really hard time coming up with 25 things

holy **** y'all Warren Beatty joined musicbanter.

1. I play way too many video games
2. I don't go a day without music
3. I smoke too many cigarettes
4. I'm good looking
5. My favorite film is The Master
6. Just went to my first hookah bar tonight
7. Been broken up once, worst depression of my life
8. I was once addicted to cocaine, kicked it though
9. I saw RHCP live
10. Also The Gaslight Anthem
11. I secretly wanna be a rockstar
12. I'm tired

Part II Tomorrow.

Herm your #13 is so cute - I love you...

dont try that again, of course

I love you too boo <3

I look hot with a black eye though!

^ i got my first black eye last yr while taking a bath w Georgie... she lashed out, stuck a claw under the eye ( most delicate part ) and pulled the skin out. It snapped back, we finished her bath, and then i couldnt see out of it for a day or two.

Oh goodness! Holden did something similar not that long ago, he was v. upset by some people who'd come over (he doesn't like people and esp not people who bother him) and I went to pick him up and I hadn't clipped his nails in a while, so his claw pierced right above my cheekbone and I ended up with a black eye

I actually posted it in the member pic gallery haha



I was more bothered that he was SO upset to have done that to ME of all people, because he NEVER gets so freaked out that he lashes out at me, he trusts me more than anyone

Ooh that looks owie... mine looked like your makeup there, actually...
What i thought was cute was you trying to cut your face off. Why did you do that?

I felt like I'd become just my face and no one actually paid attention to my personality or cared about anything but my looks, I was heavily manic, I'd stopped sleeping and eating and was going through psychosis and going through a very strange period in my life

Hm, I think I better understand now but it's still a little hard for me. What did you use and how did you try?

14g piercing needles, they're awfully sharp/good for precision and they were/are my preferred tool for self mutilation. I cut by my ears, like a facelift, I think I thought I could peel off my face

It's kind of hard to understand unless you've ever undergone psychosis, tbh

25 facts......easy. I can do this with my eyes closed.


1. I'm a Navy Veteran
2. I hate funerals and have a weird response to them where I become giddy and happy around the dead body and I have to control it so I don't laugh out loud inappropriately.
3. I prefer to not eat anything Chocolate related. I always go for the Vanilla option.
4. I love Italian Cuisine specifically Lasagna but it's all good in my books.
5. My favorite color is blue
6. I have a shades collection that has about 8 different shades and counting. It is my weakness whenever I go to the mall anywhere to stop at the shade kiosk and pick up some new ones. I've also lost a few over time or else I'd have more.
7. I'm an only child, well I consider myself one because I grew up alone. I do have a half sister but she was never around while I was growing up and now that I'm an adult she won't talk to me.
8. My father passed away a few years ago from colon cancer.
9. I was an online dj for a couple of years.
10. I've never been to an official concert. Yes, I've seen local acts play but not any big names.
11. I was a loan shark on the side while in the Navy.
12. I went to the Navy and never boarded a ship.
13. My dream destination is go to to Japan.
14. I've been to 12 states out of 50.
15. I really hate US beaches because I consider them dirty compared to the Caribbeans.
16. I own three cats, I had four at one point in time but one of those punks ran away.
17. I've owned a few dogs in my life but I'm over big dogs. My next dog will most likely be a Scottish Terrier.
18. I know how to skateboard but I'm not that great at it. Mostly just kick/push stuff.
19. I've owned a couple of acoustic guitars but never learned to play. They ended up just being conversation pieces.
20. I have worked at a Library as a Page. I hope that is the closest that I ever get to Customer Service because I wouldn't ever want to work doing anything related to that again.
21. I really hate beer and only drink it socially to not look like a complete douche if someone offers me one.
22. When I go to a bar, I always go and try out different mixed drinks. My starter drink of choice is a Screwdriver or a Cran and Vodka followed by a Gin and Tonic then I branch out from there.
23. I have been playing MMOs since about 2003 in some capacity. I started out in The Sims Online and never looked back.
24. I lost my virginity at 17 to a prostitute.
25. I'm kind of a messy person but I tend to have an organized mess so I know where everything is and I can usually find what I'm looking for.

26. I sleep naked
27. I Love "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley and will fight anybody who talks **** about that song.
28. I never saw the bulk of the episodes from the 'classic' simpsons seasons, until really recently
29. I lost my virginity..let's just say..fairly early on
30. Anything above 85-90 degree weather is too much for me.

I'm not really familiar with Sex and the City. Is there a character who tends to act dumb because others find it charming, but is secretly a criminal mastermind? I'd be her! And thanks for the compliments ;)

say what!?

hmmmm I may have a slight crush on you :love:


You might hate this comparison but it's similar to Paris Hilton who acts dumb but is a very smart business woman who knows how to brand herself. Yes she has a team but she's an active part of said team.

I actually am not offended by the Paris Hilton comparison. Katy Perry and Ke$ha also come to mind in terms of that act... :)

I am super clumsy and I love playing up the "dumb blond" thing. I get a special kick out of it when people think I'm being real. :p:

1.I Hate "Never Gonna Give You Up" by Rick Astley and have already succesfully slaughtered hundreds of people who tried to defend the song.
2. I once set a tree on fire in my backyard with a can of lysol and a lighter. My mom never noticed I dug the tree out.
3. I still have a pair of underoos, superman style from the early 80's. I know ur jealous.
4. I lost my virginity on a college campus in a music room on a piano stool.
5. I once skateboarded 40 miles from Los Angeles on PCP.
6. Cindy Crawford once blew me a kiss in the suites at a LA KINGS game. The highlight of my life so far.
7. I once witnessed a guy getting hit in the face with a baseball at an Angels game. The other highlight of my life.
8. I smoke entirely too much pot.
9. I worked construction on Steve Jobs house when i was on vacation in San Jose as a high schooler. Saved a guys life who fell in his pool and almost drowned.
10. I went to the State Championship in high school wrestling at 145 lbs and placed second. Got smoked by a Filipino guy in the final match. Dudes breath was horrible.
11. I love to cook and try to add as many ingredients as possible to make it all the more pretentious.
12. I was knocked unconscious once at a Beastie Boys concert when I was pinned against a railing and knocked head over heels. I woke up in a med tent and the med said good morning mary sunshine.
13. I always wanted to try bartending, looks like fun.
14. My sister looks exactly like me.
15. I had scarlet fever as a kid and almost died.
16. I still collect baseball cards and have the entire collection of Welcome Back Kotter cards from the 70's including a Travolta signed card. Be jealous.
17. My favorite show of alltime is Andy Griffith and I still watch it to this day along with The Waltons.
18. I met John Wooden three times in my life and consider him to be one of the greatest humanitarians that ever lived along with an academic giant. I have the utmost respect in the World for him and always will.
19. I am a season ticket holder for the Anaheim Ducks. Go Ducks!
20. I have hazel green eyes and love long walks on the beach.

1. I'm punk as f*ck
2. That being said, I love "Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)" by Green Day, and don't give any f*cks about that
3. I'm going to be a seneior in HS, and have never had a girlfriend, I've been kissed once, on the cheek
4. I like to make spastic and abnormal noises with my mouth and voice, and sometimes record myself doing so to hear what it sounds like. I once made a recording that was 35 minutes long.
5. I love classic country musicians (ie Waylon Jennings) but rarely ever go out of my way to listen to them.
6. I wanted to make a Teen Wolf tv show long before MTV did, and it would have been a whole lot less gay, but a whole lot cheesier and stupid.
7. I'm fluent in French
8. I am one of those melodramatic fools
9. I hate the government, but anarchy is kinda stupid
10. I am currently on fire
11. As a child, I had a nightmare about a pink blanket of mine sneaking up on me, killing me with a spoon, and eating my remains
12. I am deathly afraid of a pink blanket I own
13. I know a lot about dreams, dream mechanics, the science of sleep, and all that through years of study after having a jarring hypnagogic experience when I was 13.
14. I've never sat in the driver's seat of a vehicle
15. I smoke more weed than people who say they smoke a lot of weed
16. I laughed the hardest I've ever laughed while playing Fallout 3, because I picked up a baseball glove.
17. F*ck the cops and sh*t
18. I believe in permanent astral projection upon death
19. I was hit by a truck while on mushrooms, the truck wasn't moving.
20. I hate parties
21. I also strongly dislike the taste of most alcohol (good thing I quit) but will still occasionally drink during social gatherings.
22. I once threw a rock through a police car's windshield when I saw them hassling a homeless man sleeping on a park bench.
23. I got away
24. I can't swim
25. I was born in Eureka, CA

I think you'd definitely be Carrie. She a writer of a sex/love life column, she's blonde and can be rather ditzy at times when it comes to men! She adores shoes and clothes to a ridiculous amount.

I love playing a dumb blonde act too! It's so much fun. Especially with the male sex they love it.

I could never be a dumb blonde even if I tried lol