My reasons are...sometimes I think she's really dumb cuz she says things like "Is hawii a state?", other times she's just rediculous and peppy and perky and I can't stand it...and I don't know. She just rubs me the wrong way sometimes... I do love her though don't get me wrong, but meh sometimes yes I do hate her...I can't really put my finger on it. She was away a lot when I was a kid and her and my dad faught a lot, and she thinks this is the reason for some of my other "problems" but maybe I'm pissed at her cuz of that?..I don't think i am but maybe tis a sub concious thing.

^ This is more like it. :D
^ No shit!

But being a little cranky due to lack of sleep is no excuse for attempting to throttle you own Mother while she sleeps.

No no, not while she was sleeping. She was waking me up too perkily..

Oh well...who can blame you...



























































... :crazy:

I dunno, but after that, some people tell me I need counceling. I have a "history of violence" you see, to others and myself, and maybe I need anger management.

I'd say it more or less has something to do with her being gone alot of your childhood.
I'm sure you felt sometimes if she was going to come back..
and other times I bet your felt you got to the point where you didn't care either way. maybe you hated your thoughts about the situation after a while.. she loved you and then took it away when she left.. she made it hard to trust.. which sucked even more cause she is your mother.. so you now push and take with each others hearts.. which leaves you always perpared for her leaving.. if she ever does it again?

Oh she left because she was working, don't get me wrong... but she worked like long hours everynight and that why she was away a lot. But I was a kid I guess, right? And didn't understand that? So maybe that's it..

yes thats more then liekly it.
Kids get very hurt and easily confused by things like this.
But I swear just after Christmas you were talkign about your mother leaving your father again?

Well she did yeah... but I stayed with her, not him. And they're back together now. He cheated on her with a chick online you see, and she found out. He kept telling her she was crazy, etc...

his cheating on your mother with a women online could have something do with why you have a thing for liking interent relationships more then the real thing.