The Confessional Thread

[Scarlett O'Hara]

Originally Posted by WhateverDude

I have no self control. After my rent clears ill have 19.64$ in my bank. 7$ in the wallet. Went to Safeway to get groceries. Came home wiith 40$ worth of booze and 15$ worth of veggies. More than you'll think as far as veggies are concerned but still. I mean **** it. Been drinking all day. I'm 22 supposedly so I got time. I know what I wAnt AND I know how to get it. So what if I sometimes get homicidally angry or suicidally deprssed when I drink sometimes? Last time I had the chance to kill someone who rightfully deserved at the least a shanking I let him go by f his shirt but kept chasing him til I got jumped by his bros. Clearly I'm just dramatic sometimes when blitzed. Ain't no thing.

The first step is denial that your drinking is harmful. It doesn't matter what age you are, you can still be dependent on substances (been there). I'm just concerned for your well being. I do realise it's up to you to recognise this. Like I've said before I'm here if you need someone to rant or talk to.

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by djchameleon

Aww that isn't much fun. You should do it while they are alive and self publish it.

I don't want my parents to die with the pain of knowing the shit I never told them.

[djchameleon]

Originally Posted by ladyislingering

I don't want my parents to die with the pain of knowing the shit I never told them.

That seems backwards to me. I feel like you should tell them everything that you need to while they are alive.

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by djchameleon

That seems backwards to me. I feel like you should tell them everything that you need to while they are alive.

There are things that have happened to me/things I have seen or experienced that I never once spoke of (probably to anyone, actually) - not because I ever feared getting into trouble or anything silly like that, but because I didn't want my parents to know how damaged I'd actually become.

They'll be alright, just the same. I might even write it in advance, in case I die before I have the chance to publish my work.

[djchameleon]

Umm okay. It feels like a round about way of getting closure but whatever works for you.

[ladyislingering]

Originally Posted by djchameleon

Umm okay. It feels like a round about way of getting closure but whatever works for you.

They had nothing to do with it; it's of no closure or benefit to me to have them know the agony that chased me down after I left.

[djchameleon]

I am sure as your parents they would want to know. They will always be concerned about you even if you are in a better place now.

[Sansa Stark]

write it as fiction duh!

[The Batlord]

Originally Posted by ladyislingering

I don't want my parents to die with the pain of knowing the shit I never told them.

Totally. My mother will never know the truth of what I did to my closet. Never.

[Dr_Rez]

Originally Posted by The Batlord

Totally. My mother will never know the truth of what I did to my closet. Never.