RoxyRollah

you should be impressed that his mom knows how to do that ....

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Jukeboxfin

Very.

xLizardx

People dislike people who are different purely for the sake of being different because there's no real incentive for it aside from seeking attention. Now, everyone seeks attention now and again, and of course, many things that one person might consider simply personal choices can be interpreted as attention-seeking stunts by others - there's no black and white definition here.

Generally speaking, however, people appreciate honesty, and by that I don't mean saying "yes, you do look fat in that" - I mean personal honesty: for example, if you like something, people will [usually] respect that. If you pretend to like something strange because you do not wish to fit in, then most people will view your "taste" with the same contempt as they would view someone who was merely pretending to like things in order to fit in - do you understand?

Excessive contrariness can make you appear to be attention-seeking and dishonest. This is why people find genuine eccentricity to be more appealing/ excusable than blanket anti-conformism.

I find it interesting, also, that although on the one hand you claim to make a decision *not* to conform, on the other, you express interest in cults, which are all about conformity. Cults seek to manipulate and control the way in which you think, so that you are incapable of making objective, considered decisions - or even so that, ultimately, you are incapable of making decisions at all. Since arguably free will is partly the definition of sentience, it's understandable and unsurprising that most people feel uncomfortable with the notion of you effectively stating a desire to transform yourself into a programmable robot.

Finally - do you seriously not perceive the paradox in copying another person's non-conformity? You're conforming with your idealised concept of this random person you've chosen to idolise. A. Nobody is perfect, so idolisation is always based upon an inherent, delusional fallacy. B. No one person's situation, experience, and thus, behaviour, is applicable to another. I know it sounds like a cliche, but I really cannot underline enough the value of being your own person.

You are you. You are the only you that there is. NO ONE ELSE in the world experiences that world in the exact same way as you, because everybody's universe is experienced through the filter of personal perception. And hey, guess what? This is it. You are a tiny, insignificant organism, stuck to a rock by gravity, zooming through space. Once the cells that compose your body expire and degenerate, all that is you shall cease to be.

So... why waste what is, in the scale of the universe, your eye-blink of an existence, on trying to be somebody else, on avoiding calling the shots in your own brief, subjective life? There is no other chance for you to live, to decide, to choose what to do, what to think, how to *be*. Don't turn your back on your own free will - in a very real sense, it's all that you have.