Silenzio

I fear contact, I dislike hugs. Being really close with a human creeps me out. I need to keep my distance.
However, my biggest fear is being diagnosed with a long-term sickness. Deafness, Cancer, Mental sickness.

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Black Francis

Even from loved ones?

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Silenzio

Yes, I touch my mom on the shoulder when I see her off, you native speakers call it pat I think.
I don't know how to explain the feeling when somebody hugs me but it's like I'm defenseless and constricted.
I can't deal with the warmth of another body and the external action. Once in school a classmate hugged me and noticed I was shivering.
She even confronted me. This was one of the worst and most embarrassing moments.

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Black Francis

Mmmm, interesting.
srry i don't mean that in a wrong way but i have a niece who is like that, she has autism though.

Do you get an overwhelming feeling when hugged?

i don't mean to pry, but is this something you want to get over or is it something you think you can never change?

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Silenzio

Ah, I have no Autism diagnosed. I've been traumatized and have been to psychotherapy for 6 years in middle-school without diagnosis.
Both my parents are mentally sick, but I am not affected genetically, however I have in comparison to my sister apperceived the happenings, violence and melt-downs.
The thing is I'm naturally shy but I managed over the years to speak to people and nowadays I can do presentations without issues.
I have no idea if and how I can work on overcoming my fear because I can hold feelings back but not erase them.

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Cicatrice

This is rather embarrassing but I've got emetophobia. For anyone that doesn't know what that is.. its a fear of vomiting.

Black Francis

@Silenzio

I see.

I hope you overcome it though, it's ok to be shy and be reserved but it's another thing to fear intimacy.

I won't pretend i know what is like for you cause i really don't, even though im not a hugger i don't have a problem hugging a stranger and in a relationship im very affectionate.

I can't imagine ppl missing out on that feeling of physical affection.
If you can't hug someone how can you ever kiss them? physical affection is what bonds ppl beyond words.

i hope you don't feel im judging you, i just don't want you or anybody to miss out on that.

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Carpe Mortem

Sharks and Bears. I'll never go camping in the deep woods of the UP because I'm terrified of bears, and I'll never swim in the deep ocean because sharks scare the **** out of me. Yes it's irrational and rare that they attack people, but idgaf.

No other fears otherwise.

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GuD

Doing the ****ing laundry, apparently

Fabreeze > 3-4 days or so of booze and sweat stains, right?

Edit: and what appears to be either blood or tomato sauce?

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Cuthbert

Getting old. Genuinely feel panicky when I think about it.