When I feel ****ty and depressed and anxious, weed usually makes me feel even more ****ty and depressed and anxious.
Booze still sucks more though.

Yeah. Weed doesn’t numb you out or kill your day like booze. It can amplify the negative for sure. And it can be creepy. For me, that seems like the weed self-correcting mechanism. When I’m in the wrong headspace weed isn’t what the doctor ordered. But like you said booze is worse.

45 hours a week.

I don’t think you’ve been there - to depth of despair of binge binge drinking brings

idk

Well my advice is there

Take it or leave it

At least I've managed to keep it to non-consecutive days. Keeps me from feeling like my body is falling apart.

TFW you have the day off and your new computer is finally getting delivered today and you're hoping it comes early so you can spend the whole day with it so you check the tracking details.

"Estimated Time of Delivery: 3:45-7:45"

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I dated someone for nearly three years that literally couldn't function without anti-depressants because of trauma from her previous relationship. It was ****ing awful to see the toll it took on her from day to day, but since then I've seen her stand back up and slowly transition to a healthier frame of mind. Definitely was no cakewalk.

And elph...bud, I could give you a mountain of life advice but I just get the feeling you'd find some excuse not to take action.

I hear ya ant

Just felt callous

I'm not callous. Just making a point. For the first twenty years of my life I struggled with the worst type of asthma, constantly in and out of the hospital, on top of ultimately being the only breadwinner in my family when my parents both became unable to work for different reasons.

And then to top it all off, my younger brother dies of a brain aneurysm with no warning while we were both visiting my parents when nobody else is around, and I try to resuscitate him to no avail. (he was Terrible Lizard here on MusicBanter). He had worked his way through college and was on the verge of graduation too. Whoops.

So yeah, life can suck. So my advice to anyone who feels like they are at their lowest is that A. it can always be worse and B. figure out what you want to fight for, even if it's not the most exciting thing or niche. It's the easiest thing in the world to box yourself into misery. The terrible and the wonderful have the unfortunate tendency to coexist in the same space, so sometimes its hard to see one thing through the other.