How I Spent My Vacation
 

Hung out here for a couple of 'orientation' hours. Place is basically a semi-locked down college dorm with a doctors office attached to it. I had to agree to this in order to keep my job (everyone was in on it)

https://www.sharp.com/hospitals/mcdonald/

While signing in the recpt. hands me a urine cup and points to a bathroom.

OK

After being called into a Nurses office she takes all of my vitals and gives me a very brief exam - this all gets entered into a file. Time for the interview.

Oh, the first thing she did was give me a breathalyzer.

OK

Interview is all pretty standard stuff. How often? How much? What else? Did you before this meeting? How much would you like to right now? - I notice your hands are shaking.

(and I'm trying so f*cking hard to control them!)

Option One: $$ Daily outpatient meetings under strict supervision for 3-4 weeks.

Option Two: "And we STRONGLY recommend this based on your condition" $$$$$ In-patient. Move into the place for 5-6 days for a hard-core detox. Any rules? Well, yes.

You are limited to a certain number of personal items during your stay. Your books and music are screened. No phone. No computer. Daily meetings are mandatory - basically 9-5. No TV on-sight. Curfews. Emergency attn. 24/7.

OK

Haven't even driven within 5 miles of the place since.

Great job, Chula. I know it's always going to be tempting, but I wish you the best.

McDonald's is weird on the west coast.

My best friend back east since I was 14 and my old boss out here of many years are both alcoholics. Both have been sober for decades. Both were part of the 'circle' that were inches from a full blown intervention and both have almost made me feel a little guilty for not "quitting the right way" because I'm not doing AA.

Disclaimer: I get that AA (like religion) works for many many people, and is/was a huge part of them getting through their days. Good on them. I also get that AA doesn't always work the first time but often the message will sink in and straighten folks up.


This is just kind of funny. Or sad.

On my 100th day I called them both to check in. The guy back east admitted that he use to always go to meetings at first while buzzed, and the dude here admitted that on his 30th day sober (AA gives you a token as a 'reward' for the milestone) he went out and celebrated with a bottle.

Once my buddy straightened out he had other sober dudes at meetings tell him they use take spots sitting next to him so they could get off on his booze odor.

The champagne bottle in the sober thread is a nice touch.

:beer:

That and the THC. I attend those meetings on a daily basis. Sometimes twice a day. Actually, I attend twice a day mostly and only once sometimes.

The best motivation for staying strong is knowing that you'll be permabanned here if you start drinking again.
#trulyimportantthings #makembsoberagain

Hoping for the best for you Don. I've been there. Many, many times. This seems fitting... and funny.

https://scontent-ort2-1.xx.fbcdn.net...c3&oe=5D7131B2

So true. The best/worst part these days is that every time I log into Facebook lately I get one of those "Facebook would like to remind you of your memories from one year ago".

*picture pops up of a small Winnebago parked in the middle of nowhere*

https://media.giphy.com/media/GFG2yC4ciGMsE/giphy.gif

lol

I get those too. I deleted most of the pics from years ago when I was in full blown addiction on some whack ass ****, but I left a few for reminders of where I was and how far I've come. Gotta leave that door open just a crack.

Facebook's like hey remember when your dog abruptly died a year ago? Share it with your friends!

How is Zappa doing btw?

Something something Korean barbecue.

So he's dead?

I wrote a haiku with that joke but the wolf deleted it fast

She’ll banhammer a mod too

I’d watch it

It was probably for the "Koreans are bad" bit. I referenced the dog monching but I'm accepting of their culture. Big difference.

I'm developing a hypothesis that she becomes Hitler when she drinks.

Banned

Are you drinking?

I lived there so I can’t be racist.

40 gallons of ethanol last year

https://listography.com/user/8916327...3/attachment/d

That good ole deterministic logic.

Anyways let's get this thread back on track and let Chula congratulate himself a bit more.

I’m proud of him, too

So bitter Frowny

Ditto

https://images.onerichs.com/CIP/prev...nail/uscm/9840

To not be able to drink what you love to drink? Sounds like constant torture. I feel sorry for alcoholics, having the one thing they love most in life being taken away from them. Fate worse than death.

I have terrible self-discipline so I think I'll limp my way to liver failure in 20 years at most and hurl myself off a building when the time is ripe.

Better than going to rehab, imo.

Twas for a bit.

Well, looks like you had the serenity to accept the things you could not change and wisdom to know the difference, or something.

^ yeah I was gonna say its not a matter of loving it so much you cant stop. that's not how addiction works.

It's a matter of chasing that day you remember that was fun. Except you still find those days so it's not an exercise in futility so much as hope that this day will be one of those days. Even if those days become fewer and farther between. And tbh the days you're chasing aren't even the fun, carefree days. They're the days where you're out of control with a high tolerance that allows you to be fall down drunk but still be aware enough to enjoy the total lack of coherency where even your vision doesn't feel like reality. That's the stuff the normies can't understand cause they can't reach that level but you can and you know that it's both alarming and transcendent.

I mean for real how can people who've only ever read about alcoholism tell you what you should and should not do if they've never experienced that? It's like a virgin telling you to wait till you're married to have sex cause of STD's.

Doesn't sound like something someone should go to rehab for.

Trust me. Alcoholics ****ing hate alcohol. For everything there is a season. There’s a time for drunkenness and then a time for sobriety.

That’s a dark and very painful way to die. I suggest keeping a plan b handy.

My life is dark and painful. I don't know how to live a life that isn't dark and painful. Dark and painful is my comfort place.

You can gif all you want but I seriously don't know how to live like a human being.