Crazy Luv

Distressed
Falling into this unpredictable
Dangerous, spiraling craze
With no end
Attempted to pull out
But it won’t let me go
I’m simply pulled back in
Suffocating in its sickness
Darkness surrounding me
And I think I’ll invite it in
Never meant for it to get this far
Each time it gets more serious
But no I can’t stop it
I got to ride it out

A year now and I’m still riding it
Though this time was truly different
Went far past the line of control
New record for me
I fall down to my knees, I’m weak
The darkness is taking control
I’m not waking up
This time I’m truly stuck
I start to see a light
Is this a new part of the trip?
Realize this is it
Distressed because I know
I won’t be seeing light for long



this is a poem about "Go Ask Alice", a diary book i read recently.