Depression and suicide

Chainsawkitten · 08-14-2010, 02:35 AM

Back when I was seriously depressed and contemplated suicide I had very low self-esteem and deemed myself useless. I honestly believed that my friends and family would be better off without me, that I would actually be doing them a favor. Sure, they'd be depressed at first, for quite a while at that, but in the long run they'd do better without me. I wouldn't call that selfish.

Of course it was nothing but a delusion but in by desperate condition I was willing to believe anything that could make my actions seem more justified. A selfish thing perhaps, but not really a concious choice.

Thank Vishnu/God/whatever deity you do or don't believe in, I didn't do it.

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08-14-2010, 02:35 AM	#11 (permalink)
Chainsawkitten Groupie Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Sweden Posts: 42	Back when I was seriously depressed and contemplated suicide I had very low self-esteem and deemed myself useless. I honestly believed that my friends and family would be better off without me, that I would actually be doing them a favor. Sure, they'd be depressed at first, for quite a while at that, but in the long run they'd do better without me. I wouldn't call that selfish. Of course it was nothing but a delusion but in by desperate condition I was willing to believe anything that could make my actions seem more justified. A selfish thing perhaps, but not really a concious choice. Thank Vishnu/God/whatever deity you do or don't believe in, I didn't do it.