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05-29-2020, 12:43 AM | #2181 (permalink) | |||
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I definitely felt worse in my 20s, (one's 20s definitely feel more volatile, in general) but then my brother died and set me back 5 years mental health-wise. (Am 31 now) I've also heard of lots of people who were perfectly fine until their early 30s and suddenly had a catastrophic manic/psychotic episode, though, so.
Also, oatmeal raisin cookies are great >:v especially if you soak them (um, the raisins that is) in a dessert liqueur for a bit before adding them to the cookie dough. Quote:
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05-29-2020, 01:43 AM | #2182 (permalink) | |
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Most groups are for addicts. That’s true. I wish full confidentiality applied even for talk of suicide/homicide whatever Both sides are in a pickle with that one Odd thing about being suicidal for me is that when I start getting better I start taking actions to improve things. That’s when if you just add up the pros and cons of living it can get really dangerous. I think suicides at my age are usually pretty well thought out.
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05-29-2020, 02:03 AM | #2183 (permalink) | |
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Those were times of long ass drunks / where I’d grab the bottle before my wake up piss even - assuming I didn’t piss my pants which I usually did Which is why I warn you. Alcoholism is the not funnest thing I know about. And it keeps getting worse and crazier. It’s ****ing merciless.
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05-29-2020, 02:29 AM | #2184 (permalink) | |
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But every time you post things like that “I can stop any time” it’s so classic alcoholic - sigh - I guess it just has to go this way Addiction doesn’t follow a movie script. It seems like by definition if you can take long breaks you’re not an addict. It’s not that simple.
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05-29-2020, 03:34 AM | #2185 (permalink) | |
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When they ask me "Are you suicidal?" I just tell them "I'd rather not have a physical body" and they peer at me suspiciously and move on to the next question. (And how do they expect us to answer? "Call 911 if you're going to hurt yourself," they say, as if we're all falling over ourselves to get saddled with a massive ambulance bill) I'm just worried that they'll ask me that on a day when I'm actively psychotic or something. (...Last time I stopped taking my Latuda, I thought I was the reincarnation of Saint Catherine of Siena and had to throw myself off a building once god gave me the signal. I somehow managed to hide my insanity while at an appointment and the doctor just remarked that I "seem a bit hypomanic", not suicidal, since I was speaking in gibberish code instead of directly saying I was planning to die soon.)
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05-29-2020, 07:04 AM | #2186 (permalink) |
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Hi, goldendoodle! I didn't realise that you used to be Chiomara. I'm sorry that you've been having such problems. I had no idea.
@Elphenor: I once worked with a guy who built up a reputation as a competent professional in our office; he worked well for around 3 months, then came back from lunch one day very drunk, loudly confessing that he was a "bout alcoholic". To use the Zappa phrase, he "lost control of his body functions" and my boss had to send him home. Please never be that guy, Elph.
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05-29-2020, 07:26 AM | #2187 (permalink) | |
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jk, take care of yourselp elph. Alcohol sucks.
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05-29-2020, 09:57 AM | #2188 (permalink) | |
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05-29-2020, 10:07 AM | #2189 (permalink) |
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I don't want this to sound like I'm on Elph's side or anything but my quitting smoking was strange and I'm wondering what you guys think.
It's simple. I smoked cigarettes for over a decade every single day and tried quitting multiple times. I never got to a pack a day but 6-8 was the normal. Habitual smoking that HAD to happen if I was, say, on a long car ride or needed to kill time. If I didn't have a cigarette, I'd be very uncomfortable, which is what I interpreted as addiction. One day last summer I woke up and said "I don't feel like smoking today. Weird. Well, I'm sure I'll want to at some point." I eventually had to throw my half full pack of cigarettes out. It was like a switch flipped. I didn't even have to try. I just didn't and don't want to smoke cigarettes anymore. I've never beaten something so easily. The first level of f*cking Sonic the Hedgehog was easier. I don't get it. |
05-29-2020, 10:22 AM | #2190 (permalink) |
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That's kinda how I quit too, it just lost its appeal one day. I've smoked two cigarettes on a whim at parties/bars since then, but the urge to smoke just never came back.
It's different from alcohol though. Based on what I've seen in family members and my parents' friends is that if your drinking is to the point of causing problems with your life then you're dealing with a lifelong addiction no matter how long you stay sober. **** lingers.
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