all my closest friends are addicts, and we're all toxic to each other.

It's 6:24 PM PST and I just took my first sip of R&C. Mmmmmmm. Already feeling the slight onset of buzz.

Is that because you feel deep down on a subconscious level you feel you are just like them?

I am just like them, and given all the wrong alleys I'd be just as hopeless.

No you aren't just like them,you recognize that you are hanging out with like minded people.So change your circle for a while, wanting to do something else is the first step to making it happen. If you find a few things you enjoy doing in life and throw yourself into them,you will attract like minded individuals.Thus giving you a new crowd of people, a better class of losers if you will.The beautiful thing about the first world is you can reinvent yourself over and over, and live as many different pathes as you like,and experience a full life.A truly full life,don't limit yourself,to just one group of people, fresh energy inspires ,and the more people you meet,the more exsperiences you have the more confident you will become,and you just might start to like yourself along the way.

I'm glad I read that^

Sometimes when people compliment or thank me idk what to say back so I say nothing and walk away. The I feel like a jerk for the rest of the day for not knowing what to say back.

I locked my keys in the car, because I like to smoke pot before work.

I find it difficult to view anyone here as an actual human being unless we've plugged together. Chatting>Posting. People say too much stupid ****, try too hard to impress, generally just use too many words which is really boring to read, when its public to hundreds of folks like on a forum.

Plus, music. I'm more likely to listen to something that's being played right at that moment than someone passing me a link and expecting me to remember it when I'm finally at a computer.

^Well, I don't know about anyone else, but I am a robot trained to speak and type the English language.

Sounds like you got a few glitches to work out.