We may not always know why things happen the way they do. We may not always know why people do the things they do. We may not always know the reasons behind the decisions they make. We may not always know of the issues people have and the torments and baggage they carry on their back every day. We may not always know why they don't reach out to others, or even if they did reach out to anyone at all or not. We may not even know if we could have even been of any help if they had.
People grow apart. Relationships crumble, fail or just fade away with every passing moment. It will happen to all of us on some level. However people can have a profound impact on our lives, our opinions, our outlook and every part of what makes us who we are - whether they are aware of it or not. Memories count for a lot and our past can contribute so much to defining our future.
I have so many questions, most of which will likely never be answered. I am pondering so many different things, most of which I will never really be able to ever fully comprehend. I am focusing on so many different possibilities of what could have been, even though I know that all I will ever achieve from this as an end result is to further torment myself.
All I know for sure is that this last week has been an absolute hell.
Rest in peace, buddy.
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