You should make better jokes.

I am aggravated, agitated, irritated and cantankerous, right now... It's been years since I have been with my ex (like 2) but he can still push my buttons like nobody I have ever met... We went through so much together over 8 years (ten total but 2 we were off again on again...) And I had a feeling when I woke up this morning that something was wrong.. it's hard to explain we both kinda get those feelings from time to time that the other one is not ok... well I called his phone over and over finally I called his mother and she "I dunno how you two do that..."
"Do what?"
"Know when something is wrong with the other...."
"Well is he dead yet?" ( because he is into some pretty shady shady shady ****...)
Fortunately he isn't dead just incarcerated for 10,000.00 time... In some ways I am glad, he is in jail.. and as awful and horrible as this is going to sound, sometimes I wish he wasn't breathing anymore...because of all the hurt and sorrow he leaves in his wake...It would be easier for me to give his eulogy then to explain to the few remaing mutual friends we have that he is just an *******...

We spent so many years traveling across country and being rebels with out a cause or a clue for that matter, we went through some heavy ****, drug addiction, overdoses, deaths of our friends, jail, rehab, and in the end we share something that will never go away, he beat the **** out of me, helped me piss 250,000.00 dollars, stole my prized 10 records out of a collection of 300, and through all of it, he is still my best friend... (regardless of weather I hit him with the car one night or let him be held hostage for 4 hours...)

In the end when I had the guts to clean up and stay cleaned up, I took his girlfriend (whom he cheated on me with) under my wing, and became her sponsor... And as much as I want to get in my car right now, and drive 2.5 hours to the arm pit of Florida, and grab her by her hair and throw her in my car and drive her back to rehab, I can't... Why? Because she has to fall lower then low to pick herself up...It's like watching me 5 or 6 years ago, and I want to say no mini me don't do it.. I can't watch him destroy another life... especially one that has so much promise...

I just want him to find peace, and sometimes the only way some people who are just so tortured inside to find it is for them to be six feet under so they can rest...:banghead: I was going to put this in the bitch box but then I realized something, that as much as I would like to have some sort of a normal relationship with this clown, there is nothing normal or bitch worthy about it... the **** happened it's over and done, and bitching about it don't really help.. I am just grateful for the life I have now, and I am grateful for the life I had to loose in order to gain this one.. I am just going to start writing his eulogy and put it away for when he can be set free from his cage... as sad as it will be, freedom comes at a huge price...

:clap:

What's a relationship even

I'm pansexual and not cisgendered know a lot of people so my world is in conflict on a daily basis, the queer dilemma be like: "do I wanna fuck you or be like you????" Then idiots all like "Oh yr pansexual? so you like wanna ****/love everyone right?"
Um no, I don't want to fuck you. Sorry to get your hopes up.

Plus I'm aromantic so it's like
I can't love you in the way you want , but I can love you to the best of my ability

Plus I'm hypersexual because of my mental illness, so I'll still **** anything but I won't love anybody unless I can connect to them on a personal level

I ain't gonna be monogamous with anyone if I don't think they're worth my love

shit's confusing

I think I may have a crush on one of my best friends.

Well, this is awkward. I'm hoping it just goes away.

Male or female?

Not awkward at all. Unless you start rubbing her leg with your crotch.

I've been there. It's hard to make it "just go away", often the feeling is just... there.

I kind of want to bang my co-worker who is 10 years older than me. I don't know if that would be a good idea though, and it would lead to weird looks if it happened and people found out. Everyone at work thinks I'm asexual, so I guess it wouldn't be too hard to cover up, but this person doesn't exactly have the tightest pair of lips either.

I always think that office romances/flings are a bad idea, just because they are super risky.

My mom used to work for a company that didn't even allow employees to date each other.