Hey if I find out you both do this then I might just make the cross country trip on a bus but I'm not holding my breath. You're two southerners who hate the south but insist on living there even after multiple moves. Gimme a home base to believe in.

That’s the kind of lack of self-sufficiency I’m not interested in. Even if elph offers would you really want him to drive to Virginia just to pick you up? I’m not having elph drive to ****ing Florida when the goal is Oregon. That’s idiotic. I’d rather get to Dallas on my own to increase the chances his car makes it to Oregon.

Btw, I bought a car with my gambling money and it still runs but if I do this I’m going to sell it or try to trade it for a van.

Yeah see I'm not your self-sufficiency guy. Not at all. I'll wreck my life such as it is but I'm not gonna trust myself if I can't trust you guys in some way. If ya'll end up where ya'll say ya'll will end up and have an address to meet up at I can deal with that.

Ive spent 20% of my life out west. 20% in Asia. And 60% down south. About. Subtract 1% off something for Brooklyn. It’s more time down south than I’ve wanted but goddamnit life gets you sometimes you judgmental bastard.

When the f*ck were you in Brooklyn?

So what are you gonna do if elph’s girl calls when we’re in Denver and he’s like sorry guys? You wish him well and soldier on. What else can you do?

Yeah, I don't read your posts.

I'll punch him in the ****ing face and then drive down to meet his girlfriend that's what I'll do. Or catch a bus with you I guess. After punching him in the face. At least I'll be gone from Portsmouth ****ing Virginia.

I wish I knew what OH looked like so I could envision this trio in a van in my mind.

Late 80’s I think. Had to be because I remember never getting carded so I wasn’t 21 yet. Lived in Flatbush near Flatbush station on Flatbush ave actually

The building I stayed in wasn’t zoned for residential so there was no phone mail or trash pick up. The first floor had this bar that was just like this working class bar except occasionally there’d be one girl stripping on the bar. Just one. Like it wasn’t like a strip bar at all. I think they just let her strip if she felt like it. To get into where we lived you had to open one of those giant metal sheets that businesses use when they’re closed. There was one shower and ****ter and one minute in some ****er would be banging on the door. Place had rats and roaches like crazy.

I also found out why NYC was so filthy back then. We had to sneak our trash out in the middle of the night and just toss it wherever. One time a garbage truck was passing by and I tried to toss it in and they were like $5 lol so I dumped it on the ground right in front of them. They were like ya ****n ******* all New York accent.

I had a bunch of crazy experiences in that short time. One thing I learned is that NY is way better than most of the country about being the only white person around. I think I mentioned this before but whenever I was the only white person left on the subway almost every time some old black dude would strike up a friendly conversation.

Not gonna lie I'm really hoping for an easy out to get me across country and out of here whether or not it's the best choice but I'm absolutely down. If someone shows up on my doorstep and takes me away I'm going absolutely. But if you two end up in some place and send me the address then I can deal with that. But if OH wants to follow me and elph on our dip**** roadtrip then that's what's up as well.

don't be so scared of the world, sometimes you have to take a leap. the worst that can happen is you die.

https://i.ytimg.com/vi/DWaQtAPzZm8/hqdefault.jpg

Except this is the actual destination.

Once I took a cab to a party by myself. This was in BedStuy and a friend of mine had another friend who I didn't know who was throwing a party. Well, the cabbie misheard me when I gave him the address and dropped me off three streets away from where I was supposed to be going. Three streets in BedStuy is like another world. I got dropped off right in front of a group of dudes chilling on a stoop. I was the only white guy. There was like fifteen dudes on this empty street and me. I'll never forget stepping out of the car, seeing them, them seeing me, and everyone just started cracking up. They asked me where I was supposed to be because it wasn't here and I said there was a party a few streets over. They said if it was cool, come back and get them. Long story short, the party sucked so I ended up getting drunk, grabbing a bunch of beers, and walking back to that stoop and hanging out with those dudes for like two hours.

F*ck that was a great night. But, yeah, there's plenty of spots out here where race matters, but most of the city is just one giant "you're in this sh*t just like the rest of us" mindset. I love it.

I can't help being scared. Change scares the **** out of me. I think I'd be mad good at being in a concentration camp so long as I had someone to teach me the ropes cause I'm just so hardwired to deal with whatever thing I'm living in. Which is why I don't know why I'm also so hardwired to challenge authority to its face. They're too very at odds instincts that do not make sense together and that is one very big reason why I'm stuck in my mother's house at this age but can't keep a job.

Yeah I checked the price on a ticket from here to Oregan and it's like $300.

Back then Flatbush was rough but I remember going through BedStuy. Train and bus. Everything was sectioned off with razor wire. Even in the daytime the only look I saw was “you must be ****ing lost”. It looked like a ****ing war zone.

It's been gentrified a bit but there are still some pretty f*cked up streets and sections. Brownsville is the king of scary bidness in Brooklyn right now.

I never felt really desperate fear in NYC like I did when I got lost in Atlanta. NY always has a subway or cab or something in striking distance. Parts of Atlanta were just oceans of gtfo.

We have built in escape routes.

Yeah I’ve been there before

No bueno

“Can I get at some of that leftover rice from your Chinese?”
“I was actually gonna save that for later but yeah man I guess.”

Come at me. I got some hundreds going on atm with the last few checks and working myself into chub rub and overtime.

I got about 2 thou to work with

In reality though I’m all about getting out west and set up as quick as possible no ****ing around

I got a very trusted party to care for my dog

But my real logistics are out

Set up

Back with dog / 10 days max

I love my dog way more than I hate Florida. Two grand wouldn’t do it.

If rp is role play wolf is right

The truth is I don’t want adventure anymore; I want time.

Every job is basically the same. Whether it’s rewarding or degrading or pays poorly or well are all minor subfactors. I do not want to use my time to be creative or constructive or to make a contribution to anything good or bad. I want to be idle and lazy and slothful.

I hope this meetup happens and Batlord drunkenly sucks off Hawk and it will be really awkward next morning.

https://i.ibb.co/DrSVzL4/KT.jpg

^ And there's even a van and a dog included in the adventure. :D

If anyone ever makes it out to Chicago, I have all the normal adult things going on like a home and a vehicle, so come on over.

You will have no food left in the house and have no idea what we did to your toilet (it was OH).

2 bathrooms.

Order out.

I'm a problem solver.

Well that was an epic saga that was over before it started. You should just come to Amsterdam guys

Agree'd.

As soon as one of my family members starts their job at Southwest I'll be able to fly anywhere they go for free.

The last time I was in Amsterdam was 1988. Pretty sure things have changed a bit since, but it was filthy. I had a great time though. Oh, and the chicks in the windows are NOT what you're getting. Just a heads up.

I think the most obvious change is that Amsterdam gets busier and busier, it's one big touristfest. But of course it's still pretty great

trying to fit 140 test questions and answers for an exam in my memory and then now 33 more G codes and M Codes also. plus memorize the control panel on the CNC machine lol

quizlet and flashcards are my tools for success :pimp: plus tea with caffeine and sativa strains...

I've been purposely isolating myself for the past few months. Haven't seen friends, haven't even talked to them. Just been a mess and my birthday passed last week. I'm simply more comfortable being alone and left to think to myself. Working a lot tho. Absolutely killing it at work. Been working a ton of overtime. So paychecks are nice. think that's pretty much it tho.

isolation feels comfortable when it's your most reliable coping mechanism, but being alone with your thoughts can be a great thing for reflection and energy centering but it can also be really damaging if you get stuck in your head for too long. i'm glad you're here at least!

It's how I like to deal with these emotional states etc because you're exactly spot on, it allows for reflection and personal growth. I also dont like to feel like I'm burdening someone by constantly telling them my problems. I'm always willing to help anyone tho. But I think that's pretty normal for a lot of people. I just gravitate more towards just dealing with my problems myself as I know how to deal with them.

And thanks!

https://boxden.com/smilies/Gk6HSTG.png hope you start to feel better if the isolation isnt what you want.

MB can be very unrewarding when you’re down.

Kiii - glad you’re making some bank at least

Being broke or right on the edge for quite some time now hasn’t helped my mental health one iota lol