No u.

Wish I took the time in school to buckle down and get the grade and someday become a "I used to be a teacher"

That really depends on the job tbh

For instance when I was unloading trucks, it wasn't a count the clock situation. Cause pay was based on how fast you unloaded them. So it was more of an extended drug-fueled workout. Especially on toilet trucks. Which paid especially well and were anywhere from 80-130 pounds a piece. It's kinda hard to focus on being bored when you are exerting that much physical force

I wish I was a former locked up and homeless cokehead who lives in a structured living environment and considered that hard work paying off but we only have one life to live.

I'm not claiming to be some success story

I'm pointing out the irony in you trying to take the argument from authority approach cause you have no real response other than to admit you ****ed yourself over rather than blaming it on the universe

A rose is a rose is a rose

A little a a little b life’s a combination of things

Things will get worse before they get even worse and so it goes on and on

“Argument from authority” Christ

Hey hey hey, we're all pathetic here. It's just human nature.

If that doesn't make you want to kill yourself then you have no imagination.

No offense but it seems like everything makes you wanna kill yourself. I have been through far worse. If you would believe it, I've had jobs where I actually miss that old unloading gig.

It wasn't always easy, and there were times it got mundane, but to me it was actually less soul crushing and boring than working retail. The physical aspect got my adrenaline and blood pumping, and I could listen to music/comedy/podcasts to occupy my mind.

And nobody ****ed with me. No customers, no boss breathing down my neck. That's the way I like it. Plus the schedule was 3 12 hour shifts, which was definitely intense for those 3 days, but then you had 4 days off and a full paycheck same as if you worked 9-5 Monday-Friday. That was nice as well.

Tbh of course I've had suicidal thoughts like anyone else. Thinking wouldn't it be easier if I never had to get up in the morning again. Never had to worry about bills. Etc.

But fundamentally, I don't have the suicidal inclination. I have a strong instinct of self preservation, no matter what. The most depressed and hopeless I've ever felt was in jail and at the homeless shelter.

Work sucks but for me, lying around with nothing to do is much worse if you go past 2-3 days. Life becomes mind numbingly boring and meaningless. But everyone is wired differently.

Spent some teen years working in a paper goods distribution warehouse. You haven't lived until you've been part of a 2 man crew unloading an entire 40 foot trailer packed from ceiling to floor with 50 pound sacks of brown grocery bags. On the plus side it was the best shape I've been in my whole life.