chard

I cannot imagine the suffering you recieve
on a day to day basis, and your only there to please
taken for granted at every turn
yearning for the day when your loving husband returns.

I cannot imagine being married to a monster
the man who at the beginning, was a knight in shining armour
who lifted you up off your feet
and who was awesome between the sheets.

I cannot imagine waking up to find
that the one you love overnight became blind
and all he saw and felt was hurt and bitterness
taking it out on you, causing you so much stress.

I cannot imagine what that feels like
to have and to hold every night
to wonder where it all went wrong
and was it your fault, why your loving man has gone.

I cannot imagine being battered and bruised
no fault of your own, everyday abused
the damage that, that man has caused
and you stay with him, what for

I cannot imagine what that feels like
keeping all that hurt hidden deep inside
one day though it will have to come out
hope that when it does, you are still about.

chard

Been here way to long
starting to talk like them
behaving like a disowned child
nothing like being meek and mild
A downward spiral, my stomach is turning
i only have one yearning
to flee..........to be.............out of here once and for all
Been here way to long
they are all rubbing off on me
all of there insecurities.

I get in and i scrub myself til i bleed
i hate my life i hate there's
so please allow me to leave.

Rushing round like no bodies business
instructions recieved and achieved
ready to drop every end of the day
though i am still in the red on payday.

Been here way to long
hearing that same old song
feeling sick living a wasteful life
trying to commit financial suicide.
Out on my own trying to defend myself
and it all depends on everybody else
i own nothing but i am owned
a slave to this world, sinking like a stone.

People that can help me
ask me for a fee
nothing is forever, nothing is for free
though i do everything i can for other's,
no body wants anymore wanting brothers.

Are you alright mate
how are you these days
you see there eye's shift, they start to move away
was it a pleasant journey from where you came
waving them off on there journey as fast as they came.

Busy lives nomore patience
everyone knows this is true
wether it's easy wether it's hard
no one is talking, talking is barred
unless you pay some one will stay
got to get out of here today.

chard

Stop pretending
that life has an ending
no it's not possible
to enter the next level
you will only find,
they will dowse you with petrol
and set you alight.
no friends will come to your aid
be only very afraid.

You think you are better than that
and that you will find your escape
but you are a stranger to the beyond
it's a fantasy, a big con
Instead of killing yourself
why not kill who's responsible
or don't you know
is that why you hit a wall
oh why are you here at all
it's not to make me laugh
twisted and hurt i lye here next to you
waiting for a *** that won't light in this hole
devestation and pain that wont cease
i am alone in the belly of the beast.

Shallow minded it worked ok when living
but in here there is no forgiving
everyone is a tresspasser, guilty as judged
i for one do not like this place much.
An outsider where to begin
i own nothing now, i am only sin
No more body to protect
i gave that up freely, but since have wept
Life is not your own, even if you think that
someone else pulls your strings, that dirty rat
all in all what was it all for
to keep my soul, i'm a ****ing whore.

chard

The waves unwined
a horse decline's
deciple of the sea
in paradise city.

When waves climb
when right at the peak
nothing is still
it's an over kill.

For something, anything
to have and to hold
to brave waters
that shine on through.

chard

Looking upon you and I start to remember
my name and my life that once was
everything i am and will be
looking up to the sky, then looking down to my feet

Will anything be different, this time around
a sweet taste of success or beaten to the ground

I'm not telling what happened before
gag me drag me you will not even the score
Somethings can be forgiven but impossible to forget
in life it's a court, someone must pay the debt.

Swear an oath that only truth will prevail
as the world smashes in another nail
into your coffin, edging their bets
what is a man to do, standing on the ledge.

Wonder how it feels when people perceive you wrong
will you ever feel the brunt of a ridiculing song
and everybody knows who it's about
makes you feel like throwing in the towel, my life means nout.

But that's not me, thats just one of life's mystery's.

akyra

Some very nice stuff here

chard

Trembling at the foot of his presence
an irrisistible urge to flee
still i stand here sinking
somethings i can't believe.

some might say that that my time is up
standing though trapped holding an empty cup
but i just say shut up
stop trying to butter me up.

You fools who pretend that life is all play
should see the light of day
and all those who agree with me
you have one chance it's called holy matromony.

All alone with my future pending
with family who have done all the spending
to make my day a day to remember
closer i stand to complete surrender.

Looking up to the man who has stolen my heart
can i resist can we ever be apart
I have been dreaming of this day forever
swaying like a heavy weight but feeling as light as a feather.

I am into him and he's into me
but now i know that i want it to be history
working so hard for this day to arrive
it's falling apart i want to take a nose dive

With this ring i thee wed
a fly trapped in a spiders web
everyone smiling so happy for me
sinking but not fast enough, no-where near fast enough for me.

No time to think no-where to run
sometimes it's better just to let things run
into the unknown into the abyss
hoping inside there will i find only bliss

Someone who knows me better than i know myself
someone who loves me more than anyone else
a guy who desires me from deep with-in
that must count for something.

Just say the words without swearing
be lady like as i know i can
kiss him like never before
then walk as quick as i can to the door

Second thoughts you could say that
I hope he's not a total twat.
Yes i do, those resounding words
the weights lift, it's so obsurd
I think i fainted been carried away
in the arms of my husband i pray.

chard

Sending a message to one that does not want to listen
hoping you will read it without superstition
To have a reply is a little to much to ask
hoping this will reach you and that you will respond
seeing is believing the truth is all in print
my only hope is that the letter gets to you, brilliant.

Why should i bother, when you give me no respect
you ask yourself
I cannot give an answer i am beyond all that.

Rubbing shoulders with royalty
still there is no loyalty
It all comes down to how we each respond
when faced with a problem.

See you very soon, or a call to verify that
feeling confident that all will be good
will all be good between us.

chard

More numbers than figures swirling around my brain
ups and downers it's all the same
cannot tell you, which order they all lye
how can I get six alright.
Chorus;
Lottery fever what am i to do
burning holes in my pockets, my feelings are blue
for all the work, I only get two
like my savings account, what am I to do.

Ready and willing to jump any hurdle
my hungry diet, starts to curdle
nothing promising, but plenty to gain
I might be staring at you, though I have no blame.

Wasted moments, maybe a wasted life
who knows what is, trouble and strife
peicing together to be, a matter of fact
by the naked eye all is broken, but to me is intact.Chorus.

chard

I was into lawlessness i was into crime
i got caught for just being me, i did the time.
When i got out, it was not the same
all of my friends had got, old and grey
They had long since, escaped from crime
they had made there fortune, now i was still looking for mine.

I thought it would never end, nor any of my friends
its just not the same, cannot make ammends
going my own way, batteries charged
have to get some cash, going large
never stop believing that all can be mine
no more cells, well not this time.

Going out into this world ever changing
still violence, gun wielding, wars rage-ing
no time to think out on a limb
rob from the rich i am still believing.

Money money without it i am poor
want to live on a sun drenched shore
could be anywhere as long as its far from here
serving cold ice beer.

The simple things in life are often epensive
and that is what gets to me,
pondering on a miss spent youth
living now is no way as easy.

Oh my the words all ring true
old now should be wiser
but still heading for the unknown
if i win then it will be nicer.

Goodbye i know, that i will never see any of you again
win or lose, i am living my way
will not eccept hand outs, as thats not what makes me tick
deal the cards- twist.