Well that explains your avatar

Today, I woke up in my bed
And everything seemed so red
I use to spend hours next to you
Sleepless nights with you
Watching you in pain
Unable to walk, not staying sane

Goodbye to you, my friend
It kills me that you reached the end
I'm glad it was painless
Cause I know the the pain was relentless

I, don't know where to turn
Cause your love burns
So I looked away to the sun
Tell me, what should I have done

She drove away in her car
Followed by the death of a star
I remember it so fondly
Something I don't want to see

Today, I contemplated suicide
Thought it was better to Die
No longer be a burden on anyone's life
Don't worry I'm allright

It feels like a curse
Cause everyday gets worse
Continual agony
Everything's hunky-dory

Today I put a knife to my throat
Felt the metal on my skin and choked
Laid down and produced tears
To chicken **** to face my Fears

My head is full of lies
They all end with Ok and begin with I
Leave a sour taste in my parietal lobe
Insert here suicidal trope