TFW you're at work quietly having the latest in series of increasingly more common episodes of incandescent rage at the entire world, and right when you need stress the least the customers decide they all want ****ing Burger King and now the hate is just building up and up and up and you're not saying a word to anyone because you're not about to make yourself look crazy in front of nearly everyone you currently know in real life, nor are you going to betray your own emotions by pretending that everything is fine, so you just stew for two hours.

And it wasn't even about the reprimand I'd just had from my boss over some dumb thing I'd done, it was about one more emerging **** day on top of 31 years of absolute garbage days and the knowledge that you must live the rest of your life in a world you will never understand or relate to with 7 billion people who will never understand you or even care to, but who expect you to be just like them regardless of what it does to your very sense of identity.

Sooner or later, days or weeks or months or years, I think I'm going to have a nervous breakdown and make an unhinged scene in public that destroys whatever is left of my shattered life, and I won't even feel sad. I'll just feel liberated and blessedly defeated. **** all of this I'm getting drunk...

Write trashy novels for middle aged women to get the vapors over.

Face it, it's your destiny.

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I'm sure you already considered this, but would you be at all willing to find an online job at this point? I ask because I know of at least two companies that people I know IRL have worked for online; one of them was able to save money to move to a better city thanks to it. (even I qualify for most of these jobs, and I'm basically useless. I just don't have the needed equipment yet is all) Based on how they described it, it seemed fairly low-stress for an online customer support type job. I figure it'd at least be better than having to deal with customers face to face. I'm currently having an awful time finding a job that has little to no customer interaction (due to the fact that I'll spontaneously start sobbing about my brother while muttering about wanting to die which always goes over super well with people) if it's any consolation.
You need to get out of Virginia though. I imagine it's even worse than Louisiana. Tbh the only real solution to all of this is arson (probably.)

edit: also-- do you ever have actual rages? Like the unpredictable explosive sort?

Honestly, that sort of thing can be quite lucrative if you can find a weird enough (and not already over-saturated) niche. I remember reading about this one lady who made a decent amount of extra income with dinosaur erotica of all things. Personally I'd go with lesbian-werewolf-cult erotica.

Lesbian werewolf cults are cool and all, but lesbian weredino book clubs are what my heart really sings for.

Tbh, I have way more fun writing romantic comedies than horror and action anyway. Famous authors love to talk shit about erotica, but it's probably insanely fun to write.

It really is, based on my experience writing Buffy/Gargoyles/Bram Stoker's Dracula (I had an intense fixation with Gary Oldman at the time; it made my mother really uncomfortable) crossover erotica when I was 13-15. It was.. .. a lot. I wish I could remember the exact plots. I can remember that it involved a Buffy/Giles/Elisa love triangle as well as a Buffy/Goliath/Gary Oldman love triangle. Oh, and Faith and Cordelia were married for some reason. I also brought back the insect lady from season 1 (because lesbian monster sex)

Love triangle? Sounds more like a love trapezoid.

I will not disclose which of that is weird and which is intriguing to me.

Well, Elisa (before being erotically killed by Demona) was basically my self-insert, so the plots often became rather convoluted.

I'm going to go ahead and guess that it's the lesbian monster sex.

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Nothing disclosed. Nothing. But seriously BuffyxFaith is underrated.

Buffybot x Buffy >

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Seriously though I'm sure there's at least one 100,000 word+ story about that on fanfiction.net. I swear I'm not interested.

Oh no I completely agree. They just oozed chemistry in their scenes together. They would have balanced each other out nicely as a couple (or at least, they'd have been slightly less horribly dysfunctional than Angel/Buffy or Spike/Buffy, as much as I love Spike)



Omg the audio is so terrible

As much as I love Angel/Buffy as a plot device for the second and third seasons, they kind of don't have all that much chemistry. But **** you on Buffy/Spike. I'm not entirely sure it's a romantic chemistry, but any season 4 and on scene with them is one of the best of the show.

But there's something about Buffy and Faith that just feels like at least one of them is into it and the other would be entirely receptive if they were gay.

I love Buffy/Spike as much as the next person (their chemistry was great as well, and a lot of my favorite scenes of the entire series are Spike/Buffy scenes. "Can we rest now, Buffy?") but you can't deny that their relationship was dysfunctional. I mean, of course it was.

.. However I also love the idea of Buffy & Giles (and Cordelia/Anya) together, so. There's that.

Dysfunctionally great. Too bad Joss doesn't like stable relationships, which never gave Buffy and Spike a real chance.

Gross. Get out of my house.

Did they ever even talk in the series? That seems like a total crack pairing.

And I think the Spike/Dawn big brother/little sister relationship was low key the best thing ever. Say what you want about Dawn but she ended up being a great character, and her and Spike were a very big thing in making me like her. Little Bit and all. The possible interaction of Spike/Buffy as a relationship with them both as parental figures to Dawn was absolutely the biggest missed opportunity of the show.

I'm still kinda sad that Spike x Anya never went anywhere beyond that one episode.

I mean yes but you're still weird.

Just wait till The Master enters the love triangle.

*cringe*

There needs to be a Buffy rewatch thread.
I'm on my phone and have had a lot of rum but regarding Anya pairings: honestly no one would have made sense with Anya. Spike and Anya especially would have been terrible.

He was a vampire looking to be a hero

She was a jilted ex-demon looking to be a villain

If that doesn't spell sitcom, I don't know what does

Logically? No. But who would you have rather watched talk to her more than Xander? They were adorable. And **** Joss for killing her. There was no reason for it and it was just upsetting.

And if we're rewatching Buffy then I say start with season 5. I want to rediscover the Buffy/Spike thing.

Xander definitely was much more tolerable when with Anya, it's true. And honestly I don't even know how I feel about Willow anymore (her and Xander both annoyed me quite a bit in terms of how they treated Buffy at times). All the more reason to rewatch. I'm totally fine with starting at season 5 or wherever.

Oh god damn it do you want to set a date and a schedule and set up a thread? Cause I'll do it, bitch.

But you didn't like Xander? Honestly I think his most prickish moments were just cause Joss wanted to give him something to do other than being Buffy's chearleader. He was a fun loving scamp by himself.

Go ahead binch! I'd do it but I have rum fingers (it's a condition) at the moment. I have too many Buffy feelings for this thread. Edit: I don't know honestly. Maybe the whole Anya ordeal soured me toward him. But I remember liking him (he was quite relatable to me personally when I first watched if I remember correctly, so maybe thats why feel an irrational dislike toward him now) and Willow early enough in the earlier seasons so perhaps this is just another Whedon problem. Ugh this website is so irritating to use on ones phone (otherwise I'd have typed several incoherent paragraphs about Tara by now)

And I've got about to pass out from beer fingers seriously I'm done I'm going for a cigarette and saving the last of my energy for brushing my teeth let's do this tomorrow peace bitch

Tfw socializing in public (even with friends), now more than ever, requires roughly 85% of your total energy reserves (due to your severe untreated ADHD and general personality, both of which require a great deal of concentration so as not to seem aloof and spacey and rude or, alternately, overly zealous and strange) and so you turn into a tired slug the instant you return to your cave. A very forgetful and oblivious slug who somehow did not realize that, yes, the reason you haven't been getting called back for job interviews is because your awful garbage phone has apparently not been receiving most calls (unless they're from certain select people/numbers) for some reason. So now I have to spend money I don't have on Uber to get me to the phone store tomorrow. I could walk, but I'm nervous when walking anywhere in public now due to an incident that occurred a couple years ago. Closest places to me (that I can comfortably walk to if hired) are Michael's (the craft store) and Burger King. :c I love my life

TFW you're getting lit and didn't even know it was St. Patrick's Day. Would have bought more booze.

Paddies Day is such a strange occasion.

We're Americans and we're prejudiced and we want to get bent.

Tfw all of your ab muscles are still sore from laughing about stupid nonsense (for several hours straight) with your friend yesterday.

In England, people celebrate St. Patrick's Day more than St. George's Day.

I celebrate St. Patrick's Day. Spongebob was a huge part of my childhood.

At nearly 6 000 posts long, this is a good example of the kind of thread that Trollheart was so good at; a simple idea that excludes nobody and gives us an excuse to chat together. The mod that I most admired once wrote to me that his main concern on MB was trying to maintain the health and wellbeing of the forum. I get the feeling that in large part, that was Trollheart's motivation too.

That feeling when one of the most positive, creative members of a forum is made to feel unwelcome and you just know that the quality of the forum is going to tank big time. :(

TH did do incredibly many things on the forum every single week. I kinda feel like someone needs to pick up the slack. That would mean all the rest of us.

^ That's probably true, MicShazam, but tbh my heart's not in it today.

Ah, cheer up there. I'm not leaving after all.
I said cheer up, not start crying! :laughing: